im so confused. things r so fucked up n my head. i dont feel very sexual at all. i mean i dont want to be intimate with anyone at the moment. but im obsessed with trying to figure out who i want to have sex with when i feel in the mood. i like the thought of being in control of a guy and forcing him to cum. but i dont like the idea of heterosexual sex. i am attracted to women but i dont want anything long term with them right now. but i dont want to have meaningless sex. this all makes no sense i know. but that's how it is