1. So you make my life a million times more complicated than it needs to be because I have serious feelings for you.  I'm never ever like this with people, but you're different.  It hurts me so much that you won't open up to me.  I feel like its something I'm doing wrong.  I want to know who this boy is that I can't get out of my head.  All I know for sure is that you're fucking amazing.  Sometimes though, i feel like you don't give me the time of day.  Everytime we talk you avoid everything but stupid, pointless little conversations.  I try so hard and I feel like I get nothing in return.  Part of me knows that this would never work out, but the bigger part of me doesn't want to let you go. The only thing I'm certain of is that I love you.  I don't know how much of that love is platonic and how much of it is more, but all in all, I love you.  As a friend, as more, whatever.

2. You used to be my best friend.  I made a huge mistake, I know.  I'm sorry for what I did to you but to be completly truthful, I'm so happy that we aren't friends anymore.  You are a backstabbing over-confident bitch and you made me feel terrible about my self every single day of my life.  Without you in my life, I feel so free.  I finally don't have to worry about what you think of me anymore and let you bring me down.  I looked up to you for so many years and now looking back I have no idea why the fuck I thought you were so great.  Of course, we did have some great times and I'll look back on those fondly.  It makes me sad that you're too bitter to do the same.  FYI I was done with our friendship way before you even knew what I did, you were just too wrapped up in your own life to notice.  You brought me down when I was already at my lowest, but now thats paid off and I'm stronger than ever.  Thanks for that.  Have a nice life. (I kinda miss my FTT though.)

3. Dude.  You are my best friend.  We have so much fun together and we laugh at everything.  I used to think that you were  a total fuck-up and you were ruining your life but now I'm realizing that you're just being a teenager.  I totally overreacted, and now I just wish everybody else would see that you aren't some wannabe rebel.  I would be bored as hell without you and I would have nobody to have like...six hour phone conversations with.  You do have to slow it down on the sex, drugs, and alcohol thing a little though.  Just keep your distance.

4.  We go back to preschool, and you were my best friend ever.  We've grown so far apart and we're so different now.  I just wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts every single day and I hope to god that you're okay.  You are by far the strongest person I have ever met for dealing with your situation.  I can't help but think that some of this is my fault.  I wasn't there for you when you needed somebody.  You were my oldest, dearest friend and I was too self centered to help you out.  I failed you and I'm so sorry.

5. Okay you are one of my favorite people ever.  You are the only person who can change my emotions from sad to happy within seconds.  I've known you since I was a little kid and its crazy how we just keep getting closer and closer as time goes on.  Even after we had a thing, we kept being the best of friends.  You're my favorite guy ever and I love you.

6. You are literally annoying the hell out of me.  I don't get why you're so out to make me feel like crap about myself.  I don't mean to sound like a cocky bitch, but you're so insecure and you're venting to me.  Its not fair for me to be your human punching bag.  Stop being so passive aggressive.

7. You can be such a douchebag, but I can't help but still care about you.  I know you're in a terrible situation and I've been here for you every step of the way.  I guess its just because when we were together we went through so much with each other.  We were always on-and-off.  It was so disfunctional, but it taught me how much you needed somebody, and I took on the responsibility of being that person.  Even though you've taken advantage of me and treated me like crap many-a times, I don't regret my descision of being you're shoulder to lean on.  I just wish that it was more mutual sometimes.

8.I really really want to be in love with you, but I'm just not.  I think MAYBE if we give it some time, things can happen.  You are great and exactly the guy I've always wanted to be with.  This is just a terrible time in my life and I don't know if I want to drag you into it.  Things so far are going pretty well, though.  I can see myself falling in love with you prettttty damn easily, so lets see where this goes.

9.What would we do without each other? Haha.  We probably would be totally miserable.  You and I are complete and total opposites in some ways, but in other ways we're like the same person.  We can talk to each other about things that nobody else can even begin to understand.  I love how we can still be so close even though we have like...no mutual friends.  Its so funny how we can just bitch about life for hours while laughing at it at the same time.  You're great and I'm glad we've managed to be friends even though we're both so miserable and fucked up.

10. I'm afraid that I'm going to have to go to you're funeral sometime soon, and that terrifies me.  You're messed up.  I want to help you so badly, but I don't know how to.  I know it seems like I don't care, but I do so much.  When we were together, you were a different person altogether.  As soon as things ended, things just seem to go downhill.  Now, you've just fallen apart at the seams and its getting to to the point that I think you're life is at risk.  I don't know what I would do if something were to happen to you.  I wouldn't be able to handle it.

11. Wow.  You are so ridiculous.  I can't even believe how two-faced and hypocritical you are.  I kept getting my hopes up about us being friends again because I thought we were on the same page, but then you would turn right around and pretend like you never said the shit you said.  I think you are pathetic, and this will all come back and bite you in the ass.  Now, when you come to me bitching about people that you know I have issues with, I'm going to tell you to go cry a fucking river because I'm not listening to your bullshit anymore.

12. I know you think I'm a selfish little brat, and I really don't blame you, but you're family and I love you.  I look up to you so much, and I always have.  I adore how you don't give a shit about what people think about you, and because of that people always end up falling in love with you. If I could be like anybody, it would be you.  You're not only my cousin, but you're my best friend.  I'm sorry if you still hate me after how bitchy I was acting.

13. You are terrifying.  Its getting to the point where I'm strongly considering taking a restraining order out against you.  You are infatuated with me and its scary as hell.  I wasn't "meant for you and you aren't the "best person for me because you would treat me so well".  I'm sorry, but back the fuck off.  This is getting really really really creepy.

14. Stop teasing me so much.  Its like you love to mess with my emotions.  You barely talk to me for a year, and then you're suddenly interested again.  You just want me when its convenient, and thats really unfair.  I just need to stay away from you.  Even with all that drama behind us, you'd still cause me trouble.

15.  You have no reason to hate me, so just get over yourself.  You should grow a pair and learn how to be an individual and not just a follower.  Once upon a time, I thought you were an opinionated individual.  That's gone down the drain.

16. Don't ask me why, but I want you so badly.  You're a risk that I really want to take.  I know nothing would go anywhere.  I'm sure I wouldn't be interested at all if there was a chance that it would.
 
17. You are my sister, pretty much. Sure, we're actually related, but we're so much more than that.  We actually can stand each other too.  Even though we bitch most of the time we're together we know its nothing serious.  You really are like the little sister I always wanted.  I'm so happy that I'll have somebody to get old with and be close to for ever and ever and ever. =]

18. You are a nice kid, but you're totally oblivious.  You and your girlfriend have no means of communication, and I'm prettyyyy sure both of you have cheated on one another.  Thats not cool.  Learn how to actually talk to her.

19. Haha.  You were the first guy that I thought I was "in love" with.  It was all such a joke, and I let my emotions get the best of me, but those were good times.  I kinda miss being best friends, kiddo.

20. I miss us.  When I was with you I was the happiest I've ever been.  I'm fine with being just friends now, and both of us have obviously moved on with other people, but I know that theres always going to be something between us and I love that.  In the back of my head, I'm always thinking about "what if I didn't make such a dumb-ass mistake and ruin it all?"