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Last Updated: 11/17/2009

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Monday, March 16, 2009 08:47 AM





    I'm not the fanciest kind of girl. I don't insist on you paying all the time. I wont pout if you don't take me places or buy me clothes. I want a real relationship, and to me that doesn't entail anything more than being there for one another. I don't NEED a commitment out of someone at this point. I don't NEED dates and sex and sleep overs. I may not know what I want, but I know what I need.

    I need someone to talk to. I need someone I can spill my guts to about anything, any stupid thought or memory. Any stupid little problem I'm dealing with. I usually make it a point to keep everything bottled up inside of me, but I haven't always had to be that way. I used to have someone I could talk to. Now I just don't. I don't need you to tell me you love me, or that you think I'm all these wonderful fucking things. I don't want you to shy away when I tell you that I miss you or I was thinking about you. I'm not trying to push anything towards you.I 'm not trying to shove an engagement down your throat. For fuck's sake, just let me open up. Give me that chance. Open up to me back. I don't need you to be my lover. Maybe someday, maybe in the future, but can't you just start off being my friend?


 
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M.S. Lovecraft

 
I think the biggest mistake we often make in pursuing relationships is that we set those people we're interested in a different category, they're not just friends, they're crushes, or whatever. I think that, automatically, is what fucks us from the get go. if we treated our lovers like friends I think relationships would be a lot healthier and last longer. There's that whole "how long do you wait to have sex with a guy" question and it boggles me because we go out on a date or two (or six) and think it's the right time to sleep with a guy but then as soon as you have sex you feel closer to them and it's all bullshit, sex is just a verb, it doesn't make you closer to someone in the ways that matter. and then it's like, from that point on, you have this false sense of confidence in your relationship because you've been "intimate" but the kind of intimacy relationships need to survive is mental, emotional. I totally agree with you and hope that you can find someone to just bullshit with.









(sorry, I've been thinking about this same thing.
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Posted by M.S. Lovecraft on Monday, March 16, 2009 - 08:12 PM
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