When I realized that I was doing wrong when I was dating this guy we will just call him T.(we ended finally right before my 23rd bday in October last yr) It was a very unhealthy relationship. It was comfortable. We dated on and off for like 8 years. He lived 5 minutes from my house and he would pick me up on his way home from work/school. and I would be in my PJs at night, so i would show up at his house I didnt care what I looked like. I would sleepover there in the most cluttered house you ever seen. Its gross. They never cleaned the house ever. The A/C would barely ever work. The only room in the house that would be clean would be his sister's room. It is really sad. When I was over there, he would sit there and watch TV and not move only to eat food and play video games. When i got bored I just colored in my coloring books his mom bought me for Christmas. We barely went out of the house. He was so depended on his mom, so that made me so Dependant too. He has a big grudge on his dad so he is never very nice to his father. At my house, there was soo much tension because they didnt like T at all. And then soon T lost his place at school because of a back injury and laid around the house 24/7. We would get into alot of fights about religion too, his mom involved also. I would defend my God. He wanted me to open my mind about the dead sea scrolls and all that stuff I really dont believe in. I believe in the Bible and thats all that matters to me. So then I started going to church with Laura Ashley and I remember hearing that song, *Wrap Me In Your Arms* at youth group and I just told God, I know T is bad for me, he is evil... Please take him out of my life because I do not know what to do anymore. Then me and T had some rough times ahead, I would stay up crying everynite cause I would feel guilty sleeping next to him because I knew it was wrong. In the mean time and in the middle of our relationship David(my boyfriend now) was spending time at T's house and I would bawl my eyes out everytime David was around. I didnt want him around at all. I had T lie to him and tell him he cant come over for certain reasons. Then I went to Williams with the youth group and that weekend my cousin past away of 7 yrs old to cancer. On our last day at camp, I felt the urge to lift my life up to God and take away T. Tell him how bad T has been to me and how much it is breaking up my family. I havent been close to my mom till this year. I can actually be able to talk to my mom without her getting annoyed with me after the first 5 minutes of talking. So when I got home,the trip was in August(I cant remember the date) So then end of September, T accused me of wanting Randy back, only God sent him back into my life for comfort while I get over T. But I really left T for God. He can believe anything he wants but thats the real truth. Then I decided to not date for a yr or so to work on God and I's relationship. Before I knew it, David came into my life and its healthy and we have some trials to go through but I know David and I will do well. We are after God's heart besides eachother's and thats what the difference is. David knows my past so he knows how far I have come and it shows him that God is at work in my heart. David was actually like my angel through the years and I never knew it. I thank God all the time for rescuing me from that terrible place I was in. That is why Isiah 41:10 works wonders for me. I hope this gives people hope that He is there when you need Him most. I believe it.

Love,
Britt