A lot has happened lately. The majority of it has been bad. I'm not sure what I'm going to write here if anything at all. I feel like i don't even know where to begin to express my feelings. But I feel like theres something on my chest that i should try to get off. I might write a little bit. Walk away. Come back and finish. I would write a little stereotypical myspace blog. But I'm different then that. When I write something. I express everything I am. I guess i'm just that kind of person. All or nothing.

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

The majority of us make stupid decisions. It's always seems like it's split 50/50 for people that realize that they made a stupid decision or did something wrong and attempt to repent. The others see their actions as flawless and they did nothing wrong. i feel like theres been some people in my life lately that have been making momentual mistakes and not realizing the flaw. They don't think about the present,future, or past. Nor do they think about the reprecusion for their actions on them selves or other people.

I'm tired of everyone walking such a narrow path. Thinking so highly of them selves and only about them selves. If anyone is actually reading this. This isn't about everyone in my life. It's about a select few that i have in mind. To tell you the truth. The majority of the people in my life are amazing. They have made such an impact on my life. I will never forget them. i don't know where I'd be right now without them. I just wanted to say thank you to all my friends and family. Espcially:

 Jose, you've been there for me so much. To put a smile on my face. To let me just vent without judgement. We've had so much fun and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. You're an amazing person . You have the brightest future. You're brilliant and humble all at the same time.

Andy, has always been there for me in a pinch. I call him and hes right there for me. I couldn't ask for a more devoted bestfriend. I know hes the type of person I will have as a friend for the rest of my life and that makes me so incredibly happy. You have such a kind warm heart andy. I feel amazing when i'm near you.

Mary ann, We've been friends for a few years now and we've made so many memories. I've become so close to her kids and i think they're all beautiful in their own way. Mary ann always makes me laugh and always cheers me up and puts me in a great mood. She's been through so much. But yet shes optimstic. I respect that so incredibly much. Her optimism is infectious. i love it.

More then anything. I'm lucky to have my mother in my life. We have had our tid bits. But shes so amazing. She loves me so much and I feel the same about her. She has such a simple pure loving heart. She's had a lot happen to her Which none of she deserves. I just hope I make it better for her. I'll always be there for her and she is the single most important person in my life. I don't know what I would do without her. i truly feel like theres not enough time, words, or finite room to discribe how much she means to me.

I love my mother more then absolutely everything.

I lay my head into the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it
I'm counting UFO's
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy
I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here

I wish you were here.

I wish you were here

Everything that has been happening lately. All the things I've been going through. I could either take them as bad luck or a blessing. i chose to take them as a blessing. It's made me realize a lot of things. It's made me realize how amazing my mother is. How amazing my friends are and how lucky I truly am.

Theres a lot more i could discuss. Theres a lot more that has happened that i want to get out. But now is not the right time. I'm going to spill my heart out on this internet canvas when I'm fit and ready. Then it will be true to my self in every way. My soul will be expressed and a 1,000 tons will be lifted off my chest.

I've been missing/thinking of a lot of people lately. i just want to let you know. You're in my heart and i will never forget you.

The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care but my hands are busy in the air

I wish you were here