I do not know quite where to start so I will just start. I have been doing allot of reflecting the past few months. We have so many predestined things to accomplish in this short time here on earth; We are as a vapor in existence a mere dot in the process of life. I have been wresting with the commission on my life for so long now. We all have that thing that we can do with little effort on our part by handing the wheel over to the master. There is no greater joy in this life than seeing individuals achieve their dreams they previously looked upon as impossible. Yet many of us have a tendency to be selfish and only look at ourselves and our personal situations at some time or another. This has been the bench I have been on for five years now. There is no greater drug than operating in the fullness of the spirit. It is seemingly effortless because we are simply riding shotgun in the travels of our journey. Which in reality is not so bad of a place to be. We have all called shotgun prior to setting out for a destination at one time or another. Yet we always try and drive the vehicle. Why? That is the question that is the pivotal factor in determining if we accomplish our objectives in our lifetimes. Decisions Decisions. I have finally come to the place of understanding that possessions, affirmation, accomplishments, of the world will only put us in a continual repetitious standstill. So conclusion is step aside and let the master be your guide. Otherwise it is inevitable you will be lost and without purpose. I want to be part of changing our world as we know it. But first I must look into myself and make the necessary adjustments.

All for now. 

Cont'

 I have been in the process of self evaluation for quite some time now. With no real conclusion other than where we are somtimes is not where we think we are supposed to be. This does not mean we are not were we are supposed to be. Just we have not yet embraced giving control of our destinies to the master of all things. There is a constant struggle with the gravitational pull from my head to my heart, from my heart to my head. Once these things come into alignment it will be full steam ahead. Truly I have been waiting for that Rehma word to be spoken that will tell me it is time for the ride of my life. It is known that change happens on purpose not on accident. Equally important is timing in which we act upon what we hear in that still calm voice. You do not want to step up to the starting line only to jump the gun. The biggest question is what do you do in the mean time?