Did you ever do that ONE thing that you thought your family and close friends would HATE you for? Well I did it. To my surprise...I found the guts to tell my best friend, my mother, and my cousin. They weren't upset with me, but offered kind words of wisdom, clarity, advice. I've never felt so loved in my entire life. Not only had they all done the same thing that I had done, but they had done it better...which made me feel like a princess of sorts. I love them with everything that I have. It meant so much to me that I could just tell them and they would help me get through what I'm STILL going through. My emotional state right now is on the EdGe. One minute I'm FINE...and the next...it's SNAP and I'm going off-I'm feeling a little bi-polar. I know that I'm not...it's just that I've had alot to deal with and to quote my cousin, "It's in your job description, as a woman, to cry. You do not need a reason. For example: I was driving to work the other day and I heard a song and I just burst out into tears for no apparent reason. If you need to cry, just cry, let it go." That made me feel SO much better. Like right now...I feel like bawling my eyes out. I'm so emotional. I have so many OTHER things I could be worrying about...like my relationship that I'm ruining by being a prude. I miss him so much and the distance is KILLING me. 50 min drive, seems like California to me right now. I love you baby if your reading this...just know that I DO love you, yes I love you more. Ok fine you win. (for others it's an inside thing, ignore the last two sentences). In any case, thank you for reading the latest in my many adventures. For now I'll leave you with this: When is love enough? When is it okay, to just give it all away, how do you know that your there...and how do you take those first baby steps? When is it okay to just give in?