Most of you who know me know the type of person I am. You know that I'm usually a very nice, calm, friendly person who would never try to hurt anyone.

So what finally made me snap? A very special girl whose name I will not disclose.

It started out a while ago, she added me on MySpace. Simple enough. At the time I didn't think anything of it and, truthfully, didn't think much of her. Let's face it, she's not the first person you think of when physical beauty comes to mind. I just thought to myself "OK, another friend."

Well, it was a little while later that I saw her post, basically, a feel sorry for me bulletin. Basically a list of complaints about her life. I don't publicize them usually, but I often have similar things to say. That intrigued me, so I started talking to her. Not long after that, I asked for her screen name and started talking to her over AIM.

This girl was amazing. She had a very unique personality, she was smart, and even funny at times. It's really the first time I found myself attracted to someone only after I got to know her.

But what then happened? I guess she's not only stubborn and close-minded, but she doesn't let go of things easily, either.

Chat transcript:

10:26:13 PM me: Evenin'
10:26:17 PM her: hullo
10:26:32 PM me: How are 'ya?
10:26:42 PM her: ...ehh
10:26:50 PM her: und you?
10:27:07 PM me: Meh, bored. Something the matter?
10:27:34 PM her: nah
10:27:42 PM me: Just bored.
10:27:43 PM me: ?
10:27:58 PM her: i guess
10:32:21 PM me: Does your computer have a microphone?
10:32:32 PM her: nope
10:32:39 PM me: How come nobody does?
10:32:46 PM her: i'unno
10:33:23 PM me: You'd think more people would have the damn things.
10:33:31 PM me: It's not like it's rocket science.
10:33:58 PM her: or, maybe they just don't want one
10:34:14 PM me: But there's so much you can do nowadays.
10:34:28 PM her: so what
10:34:43 PM me: I use my laptop to make free calls to my friends.
10:35:13 PM her: really don't think you can do that if you have cable
10:35:24 PM me: Oh wow, you have no idea.
10:35:43 PM me: I'm on a cable internet connection, first of all.
10:36:05 PM her: wow, way to make it sound like you're talking down to me
10:36:06 PM me: Voice is transmitted as data packets over the internet.
10:36:07 PM her: thanks

OK, a couple lines in there may have seemed condescending, but that wasn't my intent. Besides, that's it. That's all that it took to get her to refuse to talk to me. OK, I can understand shunning me for the rest of the night over that, but she took it too far.

More than a month passed. I tried to apologize more than once. Apparently that wasn't going to work. I finally got fed up.

Chat transcript (really just me, though):

5:23:44 PM me: I want to talk to you.
5:25:01 PM me: This has been going on for far too long.
5:25:44 PM me: I'm sorry if the way I worded what I said to you that night seemed as though I was talking down to you.
5:25:51 PM me: That wasn't the intent whatsoever.
5:26:26 PM me: But that was also hardly anything to get upset over.
5:26:46 PM me: So there must've been some deeper issue, and I want to know what it is.
5:27:08 PM me: You were looking for an excuse to stop talking to me, and I want to know why.
5:30:36 PM me: Well?
Changed status to Offline (5:31:35 PM)

Lose her internet connection? Computer die? NO! She blocked me!

That was it. Enough was enough. I couldn't take it anymore. She obviously wasn't treating me very well, and she refused to tell me if there was anything else wrong. If she had another problem, I would've listened. If it was in fact something deeper, I'd have liked to know.

OK, at this point it's pretty obvious to me that she's not interested in hearing from me. She clearly didn't feel she needed another friend. I'll admit I was getting a little interested, even, but it's not like that matters now.

I knew what I was about to do would practically ensure that I never hear from her again. I don't care. I'm not proud of it, but I'm not sorry for it either. It's a rare occasion that I'll be so mad at someone that I actually want to hurt their feelings.

Final chat transcript:

8:58:00 PM me: This is bullshit.
8:59:29 PM me: I'll leave you alone after this, but you've seriously pissed me off.
9:00:12 PM me: It's no wonder you can't find a boyfriend. You shut out any guy who even shows a slight interest.
9:00:31 PM me: What? Is it my looks? It's not like you're much of a prize, either.
9:00:42 PM her: fuck you
9:00:44 PM her: fuck you
9:00:46 PM her: leave me alone
Changed status to Offline (9:00:55 PM)

And that's it. I actually got her to talk to me again, brief as it was. She hadn't said a word to me in over a month.

All this was completely un-called-for. She should've gotten over that nothing a lot quicker. If there was something else about me that she had a problem with, she should've told me. I know I got really harsh there at the end, but maybe I got through to her.

Like I said, I'm normally a nice person. If someone's going to treat me that way, though, then I don't want to hear from that person again.