A hard fact to learn is when your not good at somthing. I know im good at theater ,history, art, and anything artsy, but when it comes to math and science i would rather poke my eyes out. The thing is though that i need those for my degree. i have taken this math class now for the third time and i am trying in this class, really! But the thing with me being tired all the time, working, trying to find time to do every thing, well it has not been good for my school work. maybe i'm just not cut out for collge, but if i really want this then i have no other choice. I might be at a junior college for 6 years,but god i atless  want my associates. I don't feel like i'm lazy, but there are just some things that I have a much harder time at then others. Many people seem to forget i have sever dixlexia, i just try to hide it.I was working the AC bend concert and  Michel said somthing to me( and i know it was not ment to hurt anything)he said its a know fact that music people are much smarter then actors...no offense. In high school i never failed a class, and this failing classes stuff makes me feel like a failure. Like i will go in to take test and think i did awsome, but when i get it back i made like a 45 on it. I wish i did not feel like i had to prove somthig to every one, not be afraid of disapointing anyone, and just be me...take it as i go. My mom has started to get worse about taking over my life. i guess its because i'm moving this summer and she is trying to keep me here. Every time i tell her i want out of the house, lufkin, and start my own life..she does a guilt treatment. If i try to talk to her about my feelings about (MY OWN LFE) she gets mad. I have told her before this is my life...she says "oh i know", but she does not...ITS MY LIFE.  I get alot of support from my dad though and i am very thankful for him, he is my hero.