Sometimes I wonder just what it is that I’m doing in this life. Am I waiting on something to happen or am I seeking what I want? Am I going after my goals or just procrastinating and hoping they’ll get a little closer on their own? Just close enough so that I can reach them? Seems like I used to be more of a go-getter than I am today. Have the tragedies of life slowed me down? Am I really that tired at 25 yrs. old? Yes I know I have plans for the near future that will eventually turn into reality, but when? Am I being too impatient? Am I letting things and people get in my way? Distracting me? Or is that all part of it? New people coming into your life that change your plans can sometimes be confusing. I get so sick of making plans....everytime I do something happens or someone appears and then I have to make new plans and it seems that nothing ever happens how I would have liked in the beginning. But I am almost always happy when I see what the changed plans have turned into. Yes it’s a pain in the ass to have to adjust to this life, but otherwise we’d all be pretty damn bored, huh. Just a thought (or two, lol).