Its been a week since my dad passed away. But yet I still havent cried or hit anything, whats wrong with me? I'm sad and depressed but I wont cry, its like my body is telling me not to, like if I did cry then i'd be sentenced to internal damnation. I keep asking myself why? Why is God doing this to me? Everyones telling me that God is wonderful, that hes forgiving and understanding. And that hes a healer, then why didnt he heal my dad? Why did he leave my dad to die? Everyone would probably tell me that its not God doing that, that its Satan. But the way I see it is Satan gave him the cancer, God had the choice to heal him, but he didnt. Im so pissed off at God because he killed my father. I always thought that my dad would be alive long enough to walk me down the isle when I got married, Apparently not!!! So now im here without my father. My father was always there for me. I was a daddy's girl. Me and my dad may have had our problems but that will not change the facts, that will not change my opinion about him. I love you dad, And I will never forget you. You will always be apart of me, You will always have a place in my heart. Watch over me, let me know when im doing something you dont agree with. I LOVE YOU DAD!!!