I actually made this entry during the first week of my 30 songs in 30 days marathon (no surprise, when you read on), but during that week I was flooding Facebook with that, and some other stuff. I didn't want this entry to get lost in the mayhem, so I held off on it. That said:

It was probably almost a full ten years ago now, when I first started writing things like, "the war is over", "I'm going to stop fighting myself", and "I'm turning in my guns and walking away," that kind of thing.

I pretty much knew at the time, there would be flare-ups, and border skirmishes along the way, but the hope was that I really could just put down the weapons and walk away. People don't seem to work like that, however. It turns out momentum, and faulty wiring are really tough things to overcome. So, got it. Momentum and bad wiring can be tough to turn around... I guess I could've just asked the Leafs for their input on the subject. Oh! Zing!

So, anyway, here I am, all this time later, after all the years of reminding myself, "the war is over. The war is over. The war is over," thinking things more often, like, "Hey, the war really is over". A few days ago I caught myself thinking something about, my inner demons, if there are such things, are now more like just one big inner Eeyore. The amazing thing to me about that was, through it all, I've never been a really negative guy at all, so labelling something within me a name like Eeyore, seems to presuppose to me that I don't identify with that behavior at all.

I suppose the proper analogy all this time would have been, after a war, it simply takes time to heal the wounds, and re-open the borders for the exchange of culture, and goods and services. It takes a little time for families to reunite, and the bombed out structures to be rebuilt.

After all, we're not just soldiers who can put down a gun and say no. We are nations unto ourselves, graced with the same diplomatic intracricies as the United Nations itself. And some conflicts run deeper than others. In retrospect, I guess I should be amazed it only took a decade!