Unconditional Love

Shall I be cursed with unconditional love for my ex all the days of my life.

Will I love her with a God-like love all my life?

A steadfast love and unending love.

Love that doesn't keep score.

Love that doesn't give up.

Agape love.

Can I strip away marriage and oneness of flesh

And find God like love underneath.

A love that will endure.

Love forever.

Love true.

Is this the cross I must pick up and follow Christ?

To deny myself, to abandon myself.

Painful self denying love.

The love of the cross.

God like love.

Agape.

Or is this love tainted by the flesh and self-serving.

Agape love twisted and made to wage war.

I believe its called codependence.

Twisted and evil. BAD.

Is this my love!

Agape but

Twisted?

O God the father of true love

Help me! Help me!

Let me not cling.

Agape but

Twisted?

Let me not cling to love, let me not cling to her.

Truly clinging love is a poor substitute.

A sweet poison that destroys.

Death to twisted love.

Death to flesh love.

Bring Agape.

Come Lord Jesus Come.

Heal me! Heal love.

Untwist my love.

Bring Agape

God love.

Tainted Love

Clinging, controlling, love.

Love whose deep true purpose is to be loved.

This love destroys. This love breaks.

My obsession more powerful than fleshly lust and perhaps more destructive

It twists the long suffering love of God into love that seeks to serve selfish needs.

Can a man rid himself of such love and only have God love?

Is my God love doomed to be tainted with twisted flesh love with obsession?

Can God redeem this part of my life?

Can he heal?

Will he fix it?

O God teach me to love a woman as you loved the church.

Father of love, Teach me love.

Let my second marriage when it comes be an example of God love untainted.

I ask for this gift O Lord.