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Current mood:  indifferent
I'm watching MTV right now. You'd slap me so hard in the face =] Except not really. Because you don't beat me. I just like to tell everyone you do. It's hilarious, because we all know you'd never lay a hand on me. So hey...psst...I have something to tell you.....I LUHHHHVVEEE YEWWWWWW!! =] Mm but SRSLY. I love you. I love you like a jiggly kid loves Twinkies. And I love you like farmers love sheep. And I love you like Baxter loves chewing Jake's feet. When you hug me, hold me, put your hand on my jaw...I wish you knew what it made me feel inside. You are definitely my heroin. You're addicting, and you give me such a rush. I'm going to be like Nikki Sixx, and make my own Heroin Diaries. Anyway...I love your fucking face. It is not aborted <3
In other news...I was just driving the other day...and I should have seen something coming, because most of my realizations happen when I'm driving but....I realized how happy I am. And how much better off I am. How it doesn't matter who else can see it, because I've proved to myself that I'm not what he said I was. That it's so obvious now that all the flaws he pinned on me were only flaws of his own. Life is so much less stressful now. There aren't any more screaming matches, things being thrown across the room, or guilt trips. He always said I loved to fight. That it was me that started things, kept them going, and made them escalate. What a crock of shit. Since leaving, I've had zero screaming matches. I've had zero fights that truly escalated. Since leaving, can he really say that? No. I can picture in my head him screaming at people every day at work. Him fighting with his family. Him fighting with his friends. Always having drama and issues. I love that I'm separate from him now, and it's so painfully obvious what the truth is. I'm so upset that I got caught up in it, but at least I was smart enough to finally get out and see the truth. It feels so good. So good. And I don't care who can't see it, because I know the truth. I've seen both sides, I've been there, I've lived it...they haven't. All that matters is that I can see it. He can fool himself as long as he wants. He can fool his friends and family and everyone else....but I don't care. I don't care about the lies. The truth shall set you free =]
1:35 AM
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