lots of people wouldnt know this but i do suffer from depression. i feel sad all the time and it just kills me everytime and  hate it. I was actually ready to kill myself no matter what the consequences or how people around me felt. i was ready and i havnt felt that since i was a kid for many reasons that only a few people know but since i met Evan things have changed. I do still feel depressed but not as often and those thoughts have left my head once again cause i know he cares about me alot. its a strange feeling that i have never felt before and i like it and i like that this is the man to bring me this feeling. it mayhave only been like 2 months but i can truly say that i am falling for this man. he has something i dont see in other people and when i am in his arms i feel like we are the only two and a big smile just goes over my face. The only thing that is killing me is the distance..... ofcourse but we are working through that and he is pushing me to go to college... which i am actually thinking about now. There are alot of people who help me but Evan is just my man and the only person for me. Thank you Evan.. i miss you alot and i cant wait to see you again.

sincerly

jer

ps. I actually started to cry during this. happy tears of course