I have decided that I am weak. I have come to this conclusion for many reasons. First and foremost I cannot seem to quit smoking. I need to and I know that, but I don't want to so much I believe that is my first problem. Although I have given up on some of my other sins o' the flesh which I believe Kylie was happy to hear, even though she doesn't believe me. Second my low self-esteem has been presenting a major problem lately. Which is funny because before it never really affected me, but now it seems to be working against me. And of all the times in my life when my self-esteem should have been low this is the first time I am really realizing it and I it is the first time that I really should be confident, if that makes any sense. Third I am having major internal struggles with my belief system a.k.a Christianity mainly because everything with my family seems to be going wrong and has been for the past four years, problems within the family the I never knew existed are beginning to show their faces. I am scared of these things. Which means I am weak. There are of course the few minor dilemmas of every day life that our occurring, more than usual mind you, that I could list and whine about but I heard that falling asleep in front of the computer screen is bad for you because of radiation....... that was a joke.... did you laugh? Anyways if you are or know any good therapist please send them my way.