This weekend I realized something. This weekend my friends came up from the valley and a good friend of mine kept me entertained. We talked a lot. But mostly I understood something

As I'm thrown back into the game I realized what I want from a relationship, or from just dating someone. For starters, I'm not so sure that a relationship is what I want right now. I'm happy with just dating. I'm happy with letting time go bye, and permitting the clockmaster to show me what is in store for me.

I'm sure that a lot of you know that I have issues with just letting go. I have issues with not being able to control the situation. I have issues with not having a security blanket. I have issues with not knowing for sure what will happen.

But in the end, let's be honest. No one knows what is going to happen. No one can control feelings, emotions, actions etc. We can only hope for the best. We can only hope that at the end things work out.

However, when things don't work out, and after the dust has settled, you can look back and figure out what you did wrong. You can figure out what he did wrong. You can figure out what you want from the next guy, or guys, that will come into your life.

Sometime during this weekend I met a guy. This guy isn't from here. He is from out of town. He gave me a ride home. As we were walking to the car he stepped on the sidewalk. He unlocked the car and opened the passenger door for me.

It is those little things that I look forward too. It is those little things that tell me that I'm special. It is those little things that let me know that someone is willing to go out of their way for me. It is those little actions, those little thoughtful sweet moments that tell me that I'm going to be alright.

It is those little a moments that the clockmaster uses to tell me to enjoy the now, and that tomorrow everything will work itself out.