After 2007 ended, I was left alone to think about whats been going on with my life. Many things have changed very quickly.

I am very grateful for the end of my high school days, but I'm more grateful to those I shared it with. Even if the physical space is gone, the mental hallways and classrooms will never leave my mind. My freinds, Loves, and Teachers will live on as long as I am allowed to live.

Since that time, my life has become something that starts when your very young. I feel like I've had to learn how to walk again. No one ever said life was easy, but I dont think that you can say that. Becasue it is just that easy.

Simply put, I've had to confront many dungeons in my heart. It honestly felt like I wanted to die. Some events have led me astray and some have guided me to survive.  Whatever happend, and whatever shall happen, I can't stop that. And I can't stop untill its time.

There are things that I must embrace, before I can move on. I dont think I'll be able to fully recover for a long time. However, this may be the way it has to be. Every story has an end, and not all of them have a happy ending. Sometimes, the stories that teach us the greatest moral, the people who have the greatest impact on your life, doesnt have a million dollars, or wear the coolest clothes, or can sing or dance; simply, they are human. I am human.

Throughout my life, I have had sweet notions whispered in my ear. "I Love You", "Your The Greatest", "You make me Happy", "I'm Proud of You". Such things have slowly begun to teach me that despite what I am and what I do, that I am capable of influence.

For you, who have lost faith in me, I'm truly sorry that I was unable to keep my self constant. I pray that my absence does more good than bad.

Before I leave, I am also grateful to my new freinds, and I hope that I may be something as wonderful for you, as you are to me.

Regrets, are a part of life. Embrace them. Do not run away. I think, one thing that I will admit, is that I regret not being able to be as blunt as I claim. Maybe if I were more honest, I would have recieved what I wanted.

I did it once, as a child. I was in a tube, in the river, my back in the water. My head proped on one side. The sun was amazing. Warming me, and cooking thoughts in my head. Slowly I'd turn them over. What a smell; how delicious. I've never come across that beauty since.

Anyway, I dont know how long this will go on, but I plan to live, even if its not this way, or that way, or highway, or whatever way; I'm going to live. If I'm sad, I'm sad, if I'm happy, I'm happy. I'm not going to fight the river. I'm going to enjoy the ride.

You who reads this,

"Dont ask for it. Go out and win it. Do that, and you'll be rewarded!"

                                                                                           -Holland

This has been me, Marcos. I'll be seeing you.