8/8/08. It only happens once in a lifetime. I do appreciate the b-day love that I've already gotten (I even got some love a week in advance lol). The question is how do I plan on spending my special day. Well, I plan on going to the bar and getting straight plastered and having sexual relations with a girl I barely even know or I might have had a crush on and forget about her the next day. Didn't believe it either huh? I thought so. Honestly, I did receive an offer to have a birthday bash complete with full VIP treatment, but I turned it down because I'd rather do something that I enjoy doing. Don't get me wrong I don't mind going to the clubs and dancing the night away and my folks know I love to get my dance on. For this ocassion I want to spend my b-day with the people so I'm gonna do a special edition of the HHHS (in case you've been living under a rock I've been officially back on the air since 6/8/08 lol) at 8:08PM. Yes you read it correctly 8/8/08 at 8:08PM. I'm doing it for the people so if you're up for it tune into 90.5FM if you're in the Athens area or www.wuog.org if you are abroad.

While I'm at it, I probably should give you an update as to what's been going on with me and my crazy world this summer since school is quickly on the rise. I've basically been working, getting settled into my new place, and learning lessons about myself. It's basically been doing the trifecta, working at the City, DJing at the radio station and now DJing at the Loft (here in Athens) and there have been times where I would finish at the Loft and have turn around and be at the City early in the morning. So, the name of the game has been to get as little sleep as possible, but anyone that knows me well know that I have undeniable drive just like my mother though it may seem completely crazy to other people. I know my body and it is my heart that keeps me going.

Speaking of my heart, the trend in the last few years has been my heart goes through some type of life lesson and I end up learning more about myself, and it always happens in the summertime. This summer wasn't really any different. Basically, what I had to learn is that my heart is a beautiful thing. With my heart, I tend to put everything that I have into it any and every thing that I do and every relationship that I have with people. Though I do have the gift of loving unconditionally, it is also a curse in a sense. I have come to the realization that the reason why some of my relationships has gone south has to do with my heart. When it loves, it loves hard and I've realized that the people that I've had a lot of emotions for who end up hurting me do it because they are not used to having a heart like mine.

But it was just recently where I wanted to give someone my whole heart for the first time in about 3 years and she didn't want it though she loved it, that it really made sense to me.  It wasn't just because of my heart, it was also because her heart still belonged to someone else even though she didn't deal with the dude anymore, I couldn't compete with their history. So, I had to decide whether or not I should go through my emotional detox phase because it really doesn't make sense to feel that way from someone when she made it clear that nothing was gonna come out of it past what we went through. That's something I didn't tell the general public til just now and I've always told you all that my life is an open book with some unfinished chapters and ripped out pages. She didn't break my heart, but I'm not going to deny that she hurt me because rejection it always hurt regardless of who you are. I know I'll be fine in the end because I've weathered a lot of storms where people have turned their backs on me or said some real hurtful things to me. But even if they do that to me, I couldn't allow myself to turn around and do the same to them because it won't solve anything and it won't make the pain go away. I've just had to let go and let God handle it and He's been there as well as the source of my heart, my mother who I mad thankful for as I get a year older.

Another thing that I have noticed to is that at the same time my heart has made people walk away from my life or try to cut me down 'cause they can't handle it, my heart has brought some of those people back into my life which I am thankful for of course.  But, I know things won't be exactly the same and it'll take time for us to be back close. That's just one less relationship that is in limbo. Just living in the moment you know? I'm in the state of mind now where I'm focused with what I got going on now professionally and will still keep those that love me as much as I love them close to my heart as I turn the MJ or LB whichever era you came from. Remember TOMORROW NIGHT 8/8/08 at 8:08PM the HHHS: Halftime Hip Hop Show Presents: The BlacqueOut on WUOG 90.5FM and www.wuog.org. One Love!!