Lately, God has been working in my life. I don't know how to describe it really. I just know that lately I have been lacking in certian area's that He has brought to my attention. Sometimes it makes me feel uncomfortable, because its conviction. But I know that God never means to hurt me. But it hurts because it is sin. And that means, He wants to do something about it.

The past two days God has been doing just that. You might find this common since I dicuss it so much. But it has been in the area of being that lady in waiting. I have been in the waiting period since I knew the term dating existed. Yes I have had trouble with being content and single at the same time. I have grown as a single, and God will continue doing so with me until He says I am ready to read my love story that He is still in the process of writing. In the mean time, I am His student and He is teaching me about what it means to be a woman of God, as well as my role and character of being a wife. So from this, I feel led to share a small testimony to you as an encouragement because God has a huge plan for each little girls life.





I wear a purity ring on my wedding band finger. The reason I chose to wear this ring on this finger is for many reasons. The most common, of course, is to symbolize saving my virginity for marraige. Yes, I am doing that. I have never slept with anyone before. I still have this gift that I plan to give to my husband on my wedding night. But thats not the only reason why I wear this ring. I am saving more than my body. I am also saving my emotions, my journey, my past, my loves and desires for him alone. Very few people know my life. Not many know the road I have been on. Its not something I talk about. Because that is a big part of my heart, that I only want one man to have.

I have never dated. I don't see anything wrong with dating now as an adult (that is if there are two good Christians who will do dating the right way!), but as a teenager I was against it. At thirteen I felt the desire enter my heart to one day be a wife. Most thirteen year olds are not thinking about marriage. They are thinking about just being called a couple, or to tell their friends they have a boyfriend. I was once like that. Until I gave my heart to Jesus. And then I saw how foolish it was to think like other girls did. I wanted to be a wife, not just a girlfriend. Not to say I didn't struggle with wanting to be in a relationship. Really I did. I wanted a boyfriend so bad because I was using that to define me. But God did something I cannot describe. And once again, He too custody of my heart. And it started from there.
As a teenager, I allowed God to teach me. Teenage years are some of the best, and worst years of a persons life. I didn't want them to go to waste by putting my focus on a guy, as hard as it was not to do just that. I devoted my time to God. I allowed Him to transform my thinking and my heart. It was some of the hardest stuff I had to go through, but I look back now and see that giving up my dream of being a wife was something I had to do. Sometimes I would give it to God then take it back again without realizing I was doing so. Only to once again surrender it to Him over and over until I got to the place where I saw He needed to be my number one in my life period.
I read books to help me see who I was supose to be as a woman. I studied the Bible and studied about what Gods Word said marriage was supose to be. I focused on what type of guy I should look for in a relationship, such as characteristics and moral views. Because I didn't want to be with a bozo.
I focused on God growing me and me getting closer and closer to Him through His Word.
God has been preparing me to be a wife. I understand the needs of a man, and instead of groaning and making fun of a mans needs and why he needs them, I have grown to appreciate them. As well, I desire to meet those needs. I desire to be his help mate.

I have never kissed a man. I have virgin lips and I'm quite proud of it. My first kiss is for my husband on our wedding day.

Last but not least, I have never said the three words, " I love you." These three words are often said with no meaning. Anybody can say those words. When I say those words one day, I want to also be saying, "Yes. I am ready to commit to you. I am ready to be yours. Yes, I love you." I will not say these three words until I am engaged to whoever God has chosen for me. Because I want to show that I want to commit first if it be God's will. "I Love You" are words to be taken seriously. And I take them very seriously.


I'm not telling you this to show I am perfect. It hasn't been easy to be able to say all that I said above. It has taken all my teenage years to say what I have just said. I have had doubts, and I have been heart brokened before. I have been scarred and hurt. I have been desperate for attention and companionship. I have been in many levels of discontentment. But what I'm trying to say is, when I finally let God be my Prince Charming, is when I finally began to grow and feel the peace about being single. I still want to get married. I still want to know what its like to be in love with somebody. But God is still preparing me for that. He wants all of me. He wants my time. I see now I am not a girl anymore, but a woman. Because I allowed God to have His way with my heart, which belongs to Him. He has my very best in mind. He will not let me down. And He wants to make dreams come true.

I have high standards. When I've shared them with people, often they roll their eyes at me because there can't possibly be any men out there who can meet those qualities. The reason why that is, is because very few men will even try. I won't settle for second best, which is what the world has to offer. Instead, I'm settling for Gods very best, which I know He is making me to be.

Qualities I want in a Future Mate
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Spirit Controled Christian
Phillipians 4:8 Ephesians 5:18

Jesus is No. 1 in his life, not just an ornament
Mark 12:30

Broken; understands how to rely totally upon Jesus
Phillipians 4:13 Proverbs 3:3-6

Ministry-minded; wherever he is, he is available
1 Corinthians 4:2

Motivator; man of vision, concerned about lost souls
Romans 10:14

Sensitive spirit; in tune to the needs of others
Galatians 6:2-5

Understands the awesome responsibility of a husband to his wife
Ephesians 5:25-31

Humble enough to be a disciple (teachable) and able to disciple others
Matthew 28:19-20

Man of prayer; he knows the key to success in his private time with God
Colossians 4:2 2 Thessalonians 5:17, 18





I know many think this is quite stupid, and I will never marry this way. But my purpose in life isn't to get married. My life has already started. And I want to live it God's way, not mine. I don't want to end up hurt like so many people have already because they have chosen not to give their hearts and love story over to God. I have learned from their mistakes. I want a life that is pleasing to God and His will. And I hope this will encourage you to do the same. No matter what you have done in your life and what holds in your past, God is ready to start something great inside of you. Don't ignore it any longer. For He has been ready from the beginning, and is excited to show you that He wants to make dreams come true.