t*Ime is getting cLoser. to our end. i feel the demOns creeping inside, peeking and putting things off to the side. my time is up, in a couple of months. iVe livEd the best i can, and done what i could not a bit shY . i can feel the hurt surfacing inside her nOw. it is not inevitable, bUt its nothing I can change. the truth Must be told, and death muSt win, i shall fall tO my knees,cRy,and beg of anotheR way. there's onlY one way. deaThs soldiers must Have pre-dominAtion. i must carry ouT my duties. people are Welcome to weild my signature apon tHem unknowingly only to be kept for the elderly (you shAll be salvaged). you can join me on my quesT never knowIng What i speak off, neveR comprehendIng my objecTive, tag along for thE rIde of your life, and The end of the woRld. 18 is so close, i wished it were fUrthEr. the success In his ways will be disturbingly effective. i claiM thiS, and that, when there is nOthing, in eveRything. and eveRYthing, In nothing.iF you lIsten as i speak, Hear what yoU know. and ingnoRe whaT YOU think. i feel you should fallow your plans. and let me fallow his. ours Will not cHange. thE goal is Not mIne, noT mine to ChOose rather Myself doEs it or him. ive been Shoved in a corner. for so long, my life is yoUrs. my soul is hers. my mind is his. Pleading, Ill forever be thankfull to everyone Whos cared, and for everyone who has ever trIed to heLp or has heLped. i love you. i hate you. becauSe I dont want to hurt you. but i will hurt you. My master, hes taking control, i feel a lack of Power, ive tried to fight for so Long, onlY to be ripped apart, by my own failure and his power. its Destiny.
    my fInal wordS before i go iS. thAt i wished i could Proove to you my lovE. i wish thAt i could win and they leave me alone. but they need it, i want it, and it will be foR* the greater good. im changing under my skin. Im feeling beneith the abyss. and hearing the calls of a power i can not challenge. this is not goodbye... its far from it... they will always keep me around. im their perfect mask. their my dirty little secret. but whats done is done. for past is future present is both. and future is our past. thissickness is what i wish to be gone i wish their was a cure. but the poison is no longer a foriegn substance. but my very own blood. im cold. im hot. im everything that is nothing and nothing that is everything. this world is over since the begining of start, and is re-animated since the begining of its end.  all at the same time we feel it, know it, and cant understand it, their is no past present, future, there is no time. other than begining to end. no middle. it starts the same time it end's. this world has been cruel, yes. but the humen race has been Crueler. it must end.
DEATH HAS TAKEN ITS TOLL ON ME, MY ALTERNATE EGO HAS CONSUMED ME, IM HERE NOW BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.  BUT I DO HAVE TO CHANGE THE WORLD. I DO. I WISH IT COULD BE SOMEONE ELSE. BUT I DONT THINK SHE'S BLESSED ANYONE ELSE WITH MY DAMNED CURSE.
I LOVE YOU
FOREVER AND EVER.