i want to go back to harrow NOWWWWWWWW. i miss the privacy, the independance, the people. i miss flat 57 and flat 58 i miss goth dan. i miss my routine of seeing scott all weekend and seeing phoebe every single day. i hate the fact ive gone from stupidly thick curtains to no blinds or curtains!!

and its all becuase of work stupid stupid work. wel to be honest i am starting to enjoy it, being in a bar seeing as i finally got to go behind the bar the other day. the poeple i work with are cool and spending new years was good to get to know them better. but it means i dont get to see many friends here and its just so different.

i love my friends here and its been awesome seeing them when i can. but i feel stupidly insecure and im finding it hard ot cope with my emotions here, probably becuase i have no "me" time tbh.

i hope that when i do finally go back i will cam down again and things will be like before if not better. i just want to be happy and make them happy. but its hard to know if your succeeding when you have a stupid lack of communication.

im going to try and write these stupid essays and solve all of this, only issue is ive left my notes in harrow, i see an excuse coming :)x