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Patricia Resnick


Last Updated: 3/17/2009

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Gender: Female
Status: Divorced
Age: 101
Sign: Scorpio

City: Apple Valley
State: California
Country: US
Signup Date: 4/27/2007

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December 2, 2008 - Tuesday 

Current mood:  quixotic
Category: Life
My god, it's almost 2 months since I was here! Life has continued unchecked. I've managed to enroll myself in school (starts in 2 days) and commit myself to about $7500 worth of debt to do so. With luck it will be about $12,000 by the time I get my BS. In Communications, which is to say a BS in BS. Emphasis on Technical Writing, so I'll be a TECHNICAL BSer. And then maybe law school, so a truly professional, well paid BSer.
I never cease to be amazed at how few people actually know or understand me, who I am, what I'm saying, what I'm thinking, what my life is. I'm starting to be a hermit not out of choice (although that's always part of it) but out of there's nobody who wants to or knows how to play with me. A very lonely feeling, which is something I haven't felt in a long time. I'd say "Damnit, I'm not that weird." but the truth is that I am. And I like me that way. I've worked hard to get here. To steal a line, I used to be different, but now I'm the same. And there's no going back.
I'm missing my husbands, I'm missing my life I left behind. Not that I can or would return to any of it.
Change of subject - I'm going to file income taxes for the first time in a very long time. And under occupation it's going to say "writer." That feels so satisfying, even if it DOES mean I'll have to pay taxes. It feels the way people must feel when they are living in a foreign country, unexplored territory, new discoveries every day, more about yourself than about where you are. And you can go home again, but you're never the same, you've become someone you didn't know but have learned to like, at least tentatively.
Currently listening:
Shepherd Moons
By Enya
Release date: 1991-11-19
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♥Misty♥

 
Hello my friend,
Congrats on going back to school. May your road be blessed with no more than you can handle and an abundance of what you need.

I am sorry to hear your hermit self is feeling lonely.
I hope that this has come to pass?
Know that I love you and you are often in my thoughts!

Be well my friend,
~M
 
Posted by ♥Misty♥ on December 10, 2008 - Wednesday - 2:52 AM
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Kate Wolstencroft-Ryan
Kate Wolstencroft-Ryan

 
When I moved to the States from England with my family, and a year later my husband had run off, I decided to stay and I went back to school, borrowing the money from my brother - I paid it back - I had never finished school in England, but went on to get a masters from Fordham U in New York. I remarried along the way, and acquired 3 more children. I kept the whole family including my husbands last wife, and my ex's new wife and new children, and we became a clan. It was not easy, and there was a lot of crying and rude words expressed by me in private, but thanks to a couple of excellent girl friends, I survived and so I tell you, what an exciting life you have ahead - believe me - sending you love and good wishes, Kate
 
Posted by Kate Wolstencroft-Ryan on December 10, 2008 - Wednesday - 11:33 PM
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