Hey friends! Good times to all this Christmas, I spent way too much money this year, so if we exchange gifts, then next year I am going to donate money in your honor to The Invisible Children who are being abducted in the Sudan. I feel like I have allowed the spirit of giving to manifest itself in the wrong ways over the past several years and there are many people who really need money around the world. So next year, most of my money goes to them, that being said, I can't wait to see my kids open their presents Monday morning, although Aevry is too young to know what is going on, it still will be cool to watch her eat the wrappers right? We just bought a used van that looks really nice, but smells of crap and potatoes, so we are working to remove the smell, I think it was in a flood or something and we were the suckers that bought it, I don't know though. Christmas is peculiar to an aging person like me. On one hand, I have the joy of spending another year with my family and friends and on the other I have the nostalgia of remembering past Christmases, which for some reason brings me a little pain, I remember friends that are long since gone, places that have since been torn down, and feelings that are like ghosts now. It really is weird because Christmas brings all of these things for me whether I ask for them or not, maybe you too. I remember Anthony and how he would fill my car with popcorn and them blame it on my friends for me to unjustly pay back, sorry again Justin. I remember my old friend Kelly and how when I had a heart attack just before Christmas 10 years ago, she spent the whole week with me in the hospital after visiting hours were over, they couldn't make her go home, she was a good friend. I remember Jim, and how after that said heart attack, he was not able to come see me because he got the super flu and was both pooping and throwing up at the same time as he called me in my hospital bed. I remember these little elfs my mom used to put on the tree that me and Jason, my brother, used to play with once a year, thanks mom for buying me those elves form ebay a couple years ago. I also remember walking lost and drunken down the Wyandotte streets in the middle of the night with no real place to go because at the time, I had nothing, no hope that things would get better, but they did. I remember throwing hot dogs into the yard of a mentally challenged home at Christmas with Will and Joe, then laughing and runnng away, and I still do not even know why that is funny, but I still laugh. I remember my first Christmas with Laura, she bought me a journal in which I immediately wrote that I wanted to marry her, and I did. I was really smart at that moment. I remember when Caeden was about to be born, we tried and tried to induce labor for the tax break, but he said no and waited until January 13th and had to be physically removed from the premises. All of these things bring me both happiness and pain as I get older and I know that I am not old at 28, almost 29, but it feels that way. If feels like I have had a few too many birthdays, thanks Rocky Balboa for that one. Well thats all I will write all day if I could, so here is the month of music and movie suggestions.

Movies:
Solarus
The Electric Grandmother (Makes me cry every time)
Titanic (Only watch once the ships starts going down though and stop before they hit the water and Rose kills Jack)
AI
The Million Dollar Hotel
Twin Falls Idaho
29 Palms

Music:
Titanic Soundtrack (emotional, cheesy, but good)
Trent Dabbs (Anything by him)
The Weepies (Also anything)
The Reindeer Section
A Charlie Borwn Christmas
Sufjan Stevens...Songs For Christmas

TV:
The Office
Grey's Anatomy (It's not just for girls or they wouldn't have put pretty girls in it)
Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air (Nick At Night)
Scrubs
Arrested Development (Please come back to television, I miss you much)

Web:
enter180.com
allofmp3.com
pitchforkmedia.com

Books:
How can you not read the Bible during Christmas
Frankenstein
To Own A Dragon
Blue Like Jazz

Food:
Panera Bread
New Peking
Johnny Carrino's
Subway (Eat Smart)