these days have been some of the hardest in my life, i've had many people behind me offering support and love, and I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!    I am just waiting for god to put the right person into my life, one who is my age, a girl who is intellectual, and one who is ready to be in a committed relationship, i've never "fooled around" and i dont ever want to. I want to find the one. that's it. I know it's not going to be easy, but i need his guidance. and he's been doing a really good job at guiding me. at the party something told me not to drink, so i didn't, and low and behold there were two drunk girls, not saying any names, hitting on me and trying to get me to blah. but i said no!!!! I'm so happy i have people and friends behind me. they will never know how much they mean to me. and i thank god for every day i get to spend with my family because I dont know right now if that's going to be taken away...... but i want to right my wrongs, mend the wings i've broken, and move on into my own destiny. i know i'll get through this... i have too much behind me to ever just quit, so ill take life as it comes and never look back, because looking back so far has caused more pain then happiness. i want to make my future into what he has planned, so god......... if you have a myspace, you should drop me a line, cus i need you