as i stand here amongst the grey mist, rethinking my life and the decisions ive made lately. do i stay or go? though my life hasnt been easy i came here thinking id find a way out and ive learned so much. but im feeling this emptiness like no one understands me or gets me and the one person that does doesnt want anything to do with me. i met this person a few months back and they are smart and kind and deep and that level they are on makes me wanna ve a better person, makes me want to do more. i think of them often and maybe if i pray or meditate hard enough this person will see me for the beauty in my heart and not on the outside. thats the only thing ive wished for in a long time but if its not meant for him to see me that way, i pray he is happy...