Scanning all the illegal download programs
to get somewhere "die zauberflote" from Mozart.

I can't explain why I love the sound of opera so much.
and I must say this aria must be truly exploring the borders
of what is humanly possible
what a voice and to be honest
this ERIKA MIKLOSA is a hot chick
which is rare in opera land



damn i wish i had a voice like that
I'd be evicted for sure.

Anyway
back to reality

I got an email from a lady
who inquires about my prices regarding headshots.
I hate the word head shot....

I called her and explained what she can expect
at least 4 hours of photography,
3 different set ups...regarding her mature age
i was explaining portrait, executive and lifestyle
plus for me at least 4 hours of post production
a special website so she can edit the complete shoot
and ultimately photo shopping a limited number of images
My pricing is not cheap nor expensive
no I will never be that $ 250 all-in head shot photographer

Like an opera singer
I sometimes are taken to the edge
and sometimes I have to say NO.
It is not easy
to maneuver between making money
and doing favors
giving a favor is done on business merits as well
it is all business yes
and sometimes the favor is given
with realizing after a while
that I will not get anything in return
Is that considered a business loss ?
guess so
but I also consider that an investment
a chance taken.
sometimes I do just give because I love a person
and when it feels the right thing to do.
Yes it happens: Giving for giving and nothing else
is it good karma when i project
to get something in return in the long haul ?
don't think so
Good karma is giving the person on the street
a cigarette and a light
without knowing his name
"cigarette karma" I call this

Here I go again
Cigarettes on my mind
which brings me to this :
4th day of NON smoking
Yesterday I found this cigarette in my leather jacket
a whole complete American Spirit !
I put it under my nose as if it was a cigar
and inhaled the smell of the tobacco
Put it on the kitchen counter and walked away
my wife took the cig...it is gone now
Allen Carr told me in his book
That I cannot make this one cig the ultimate loss
thats the wrong mind setting
frack that shit
I want a cig....