DESTROY ALL CALENDARS EP

Stepping on Cracks

Pouring over these pages
Searching for an answer to a question
I never even wanted to ask
But the fact remains
You're gone and never looking back

Doesn't matter much
Cause I'm looking down anyways
My head's quite heavy these days
Weighed down by an honest
Lack of understanding
I gave you everything I had
You gave me nothing back

I'm pulling out my hair
And planting all the roots
Touch the sun for me baby
(Get warm and burn out)

My spine is broken
Bent over backwards
One too many times
It was never enough

And if you could fill these bags under my eyes
What would you put in them?
Once again you've got
Nothing left to give
So I've limped my way into a corner
And I'm bleeding miserably
Hand me another bandage will ya?
So much time spent chasing ghosts
My life is haunted
So fucking haunted

I won't let you see me like this
So close your eyes and just walk away
Your eyes betray
what your lips won't say
Agony the world will never see
All I'm losing is me

Of Course It's Dark, It's a Suicide Note

The world we know is dying. The world we knew is dead
And even though we're trying, I know that it's too late

To save a dying breed takes strength and compassion beyond belief
Living in the ruins of this failure is enough to break the best of us
So why help build it up, when we can tear it all down?

But if there's something to be said for all the innocent blood that's been shed
It must be that life is beautiful
To value that which matters most, to love and laugh and hold it close
They can't take that away from me

I'll choose my battles carefully but I will always choose to fight
Injustice is never acceptable
Mark my words, when the tables turn
You'll be the one staring down the barrel of a gun

When the odds are stacked against you the world can seem unfair
They make the rules to serve their interests
They taken everything I love and sealed off every entrance

But what they fail to realize will see to their demise
They rape and steal, they lie and kill
They're fucking empty inside
They fight for nothing
And leave us with something worth fighting for
Something worth fighting for

Time and Pressure

When I say I’m losing,
What I really mean is that I’m on my way
To being lost in something more
Well that doesn’t sound so bad now does it?

I’ve rubbed shoulders with people looking to be found
To be someone,
To be something,
To just be proud
To tilt their heads back and bask
In a lukewarm spotlight
Cast down from catwalks of superstition

I’ve shaken hands with men
Whose finely tailored suits
Just didn’t fit
Clothes don’t make the man
So stop wearing yourself thin

To a clinical observer of the human carnival
The games all sound the same
“Pick me, pick me, love me, use me.”
They call to each other like crickets at dusk
And I rock myself to sleep

Softly, to their song
There’s music in the sky if you know how to listen up
There’s power in the soil if you let yourself believe
And there’s good company to be found at eye level

Stop looking up, stop feeling down
Stop trying to be found
Lose yourself
There’s a liar in everything familiar

Destroy all Calendars

How can this be?
How could this have possibly happened?
Everything I’ve ever been told, merely a lie
Wrapped up in comfortable mythology
Suffocated by false pursuits of happiness
A culture born at any expense

From the ashes of history this monolith rises
Skyward, ascending reality
Leaving in its wake a trail of blood
For a saddened existence
A societal foundation built on careful calculation
Lies and insanity, superego and conquest, unhappiness in destruction
Hand in hand

When the outcome rules the process,
When the end consumes the means,
We leave ourselves with one option: extinction

But these ideas run deep
Firmly rooted in an inferior superiority complex
What cannot be conquered can never be understood
What does not assimilate must be destroyed
Whatever it takes to feed this insatiable civilization
(We must pursue at any cost?)
I hang my head and tense my body in horror
IN DEFIANCE

For I have ripped this culture’s veil from my tired eyes
Peered into its mythology long enough to realize,
I don’t want to be a part of it another day
I don’t want to be a part of it another fucking day

FIND YOUR WAY OUT EP

I've Made A Huge Mistake

And so it unfolds, before our very eyes
The harsh realities of a world gone cold
Devoid of the human warmth which once radiated
From a thousand hearts
Beating a common beat, pumping a family blood
Thick, red love coursing through the arteries
Of this fallen angel called humanity.

The greatest potential ever known
Tossed aside, ostracized and left to decompose
In a most earthly way

If others happened upon our beautiful failure
Would they celebrate our meager triumphs?
Or trumpet our resounding defeats?

Wrap themselves in our severed wings
And fly into the safety of tomorrow
The greatest potential ever known (laid to waste)
Cast aside, demonized, disregarded, and over-played
When this the tragedy of the commons
Draws to a close…
The lights will fade, dim to absolute darkness
And the others, will rise from their seats
Pausing to reflect, on their own plight
Just before shuffling into the aisles and continuing

Onward and upward (can we rise above)
Onward and upward (what humanity has become)

Bob Loblaw's Law Blog

So you took a chance and risked it all
Guess I should have done the same when I could've
I took the safest route, once again
And it only led to a place I rarely tread
No silver lining, no other way about it
I'm green with envy, and ripe with hatred for my inability
To dive headfirst, the only way I thought I knew
So this is what it took (to make me realize how I feel about you)

I guess I did a pretty good job, lied through my teeth
Tried to suppress feelings not so long gone
Just conveniently dismissed, for the sake of timing
At least now I know where I stand, still alone, bitter
And frustrated with the confusion, of possibility (use your illusion)

I fed you to the lions
Dressed you in a disguise, of prepared temptation
Breathed you in deep, one last time
Then consciously sent you into their jaws

Now as I sit here and attempt to make sense of this can of worms
You've dumped in my fucking lap

My closest friend, my biggest enemy
Dwell within, the same chasm I've left vacant for my demons.

Excuse Me, Do These Effectively Hide my Thunder?

Of all the frustrations life has to offer
Surely there is none greater than this
To watch you fade away
Eyes glazed, snout gray
With nothing but a helpless whimper
To shame a legacy of such elated love
Somehow I knew this day would come
Though I fought it with everything, that I could muster

What is it to say goodbye?
To the ones you don't want to leave you
To be left buried under the weight of joyous memories
And with the task of burying your heart under six feet of lonely earth
I am so fucking exasperated
At my inability to do more for you

When left without a choice
One of us dies
And the other dies. A little inside
As the sun sets onto this, your final night
I profress my anguish on these pages
Left with little more than inevitability to comfort my broken heart

I love you with all that I have.
Gone but not forgotten old friend
Gone, but never forgotten.

For British Eyes Only...

I've reached the point of no return
And I must say it looks all too familiar
For the life of me I can't understand why I do this to you all
Why I do this to myself
And I wake up everyday wondering (does it really have to be like this?)

My words so sharp and aimed so true
It's no wonder I'm the only one left standing
I've done it all, and failed each time
Watching everyone fall away, piece by piece, one by one
Yet somehow I remain afloat, clinging helplessly to the past
As if what happened then will save me now
How could I be so naive

Believing verbal justification will right these wrongs
Regurgitating the same apologies time and time again....

Well if talk is cheap, then I'm in debt
And there's no one left to blame
No one in sight to point my finger at
Got to throw these skeletons, from my closet (cause the oldest habits die the hardest)
Time to face these demons and feel their wrath....

I can't say I didn't see it coming
Just foolishly assumed the day would never come
Well here it is, and I hate myself
Who would have guessed?

Exit Strategy

I've waited seven long years to say this
And though I've already said it a thousand times before
On these pages, and under my breath
I can't afford to dress it up in metaphors another second
I. FUCKING. HATE. YOU.

When wishing death upon you, doesn't come close
To the punishment you deserve
I'll fantasize justly morbid thoughts
And let this hate boil over
A life if failure should be shame enough…

Cause you can't change minds with a cross and a gun
And you swore to destroy the very thing that you've become
If you want to end terror, take a look in the mirror
Stick a knife in your throat, and cut from ear to ear
I. FUCKING. HATE. YOU.