A FAN OF MINE SHARES HER SHIFT IN THE WAY SHE SEES THE WORLD AND CURRENT EVENTS..{THE OPINIONS AND OR PERSPECTIONS SHARED IN THE INFORMATION BELOW DO NOT NECESSARILY REFLECT ALL OF GINA RENE'S PERSPECTIVES, BELIEFS. IT IS TO BE UNDERSTOOD THAT EVERYONE HAS A UNIQUE EXPERIENCE AND AS A HUMAN, I GINA RENE LIKE TO HIGHLIGHT THE AREAS IN WHICH WE 'GROW' AND EXPAND, HEAL AND AWAKEN TO OUR HIGHEST POTENTIAL. THIS IS MY INTENTION IN SHARING OTHERS WORDS WITH YOU} {A FAN I MET AT THE GAZA BENEFIT AT JUANITA'S LAST WEEK/she's in my top friends starting IN A MINUTE.} J'S BLOG:::::::::::::::::: I’ve gotten lots of mail asking me why I’m not blogging as much anymore and asking for my usual “political” blogs….. I’m not blogging as much, but I DID start a separate blog (www.myspiritualstudies.blogspot.com). As far as the lack of “political” blogs, well, there’s been a big shift in my world and I’m experimenting with it at the moment……… As a lot of my friends and blog readers know, last year I was on a quest to find an underlying solution, formula, “answer” to “the world’s problems.” Our justice system just wasn’t doing it for me. So I spent the whole year devouring books on a vast amount of subjects in my spare time…….. And out of everything I looked into, so far, the biggest lead I’ve found has been Metaphysics. As of right now, self-hate seems to be the underlying theme I was looking for. And Metaphysics is a great tool for decreasing self-hate and increasing self-love. I know it may sound “fruffy” to some or “airy fairy," as Master Co would say (he's my Pranic Healing instructor, who used to be an Electric Engineer and is also really left-brained), but I really did spend the vast amount of my time looking into economics, politics, sociology, education, and development books/studies (I went to Harvard Law. Trust me, my logical left-side has definitely reigned over my personality during the last few years)…. I was NOT even working on my “quest” when I fell upon Metaphysics as a possible solution. I’ve always been somewhat into Metaphysics since I’ve always been good at manifesting……. But definitely not on this level. Basically at some point last year, I randomly discovered that I’m a healer. That I was blessed with the gift of healing others through energy. I was amazed by this gift and immediately dove right into developing it (And after having done over 100 healings, I’m still amazed every time and thank God every night for my ability to heal). Well, energy healing, goes hand in hand with Metaphysics. So naturally Metaphysics started becoming a central force in my life and that’s when I started realizing that it was very possibly the answer I had been seeking. The realization that Metaphysics might be the answer hit me in October. And when I want to look into something this important to me, I REALLY look into it. So at this point I’m working on my Ph.D. in Metaphysics and I’ve been taking all kinds of spiritual courses and doing massive amounts of reading and studying on the topic. I also teach people one on one (along with my healings) and give spiritual counseling (I’m now also a Minister). I also want to make sure I’m well-informed on the psychology front, so I’m currently in the process of applying to a Master’s in Clinical Psychology program (thank God I studied psychology along with my politics degree in college. See? Everything really IS for a reason even if its not always clear at the time). I’m REALLY exploring this route as a solution to the world’s problems. I’m doing all this preparation with the plan of fulfilling my dream of starting Metaphysics-based schools in countries that were formally colonized. To teach kids all over the world that they are whole, perfect, and complete just as they are and that they have God inside them and are NOT lesser than ANYONE. That they are ALL creative manifestations of the Divine and are worthy of having everything they want and can create it (if that line of thinking is new to some of you, here is a VERY quick summary of what I’m talking about: most religions will agree that God is EVERYWHERE. So it logically follows that if God is everywhere, then God is also INSIDE OF YOU. And if God is inside of you then that means there is a part of you that can create ANYTHING. Since the Creator of this amazing Universe is inside of you). And of course I want to have basic energy healing classes at the schools. I really have dreams of the kids I worked with in places like Kenya saying, “I’m whole, perfect, and complete” and really believing it. And I GENUINELY cannot wait to see the effects that spreading these messages across the world will have on the subjects I’ve spent so much of my past formal education studying, such as “colonization of the mind” and hegemony. And its really easy for me to have so much faith in this because I can actually feel energy and feel the pain I pull out of people and get to see amazing healings all the time. But don’t worry, I haven’t fully departed from economic development. I still plan on doing micro-lending. I want to give all the kids who graduate from my schools micro-loans upon graduation so they can work on their dreams. That’s where I’m at. Now here is the little problem I ran into from the beginning. If I believe in Metaphysics, then I believe that when you focus on the negative, the negative increases. So focusing on the negative is detrimental.... And that’s a bit of a problem considering that I still think info-spreading and awareness are CRUCIAL. I’m still working on finding my balance. I was very blessed to, from the beginning, work with other energy healers who are human rights activists/artists as well and COMPLETELY understood the conflict I was experiencing because they too had been very militant in their past, before turning to Metaphysics. So I've had some help in trying to reconcile these two backgrounds. And the fact they kept promising me Obama was going to win and the world was going to start changing (and that it then happened) also helped. But I’m still working on reconciling some of my “old beliefs” with my “new beliefs” and on finding the perfect balance between info-spreading and not focusing on the negative. On a personal scale, I find that acknowledging facts and situations ( the negative) and IMMEDIATELY focusing on finding a SOLUTION (the positive) works for me. But on a bigger scale, I’ve been having trouble.The situation in Gaza has brought this front and center for me. I went to a fundraiser for Gaza last night. And a lot of talented artists were performing pieces focusing on all the horribleness going on out there. And the energy of anger was understandably overfilling the room. By the end of the night I was feeling sick and came home with a headache, sneezing, and coughing (reaction to the negative angry energy. I'm fine now though). The thing is I know that its important for others to be aware of what’s going on (but maybe its not a good idea for me to be there, since I’m already SUPER aware and dwelling on it won’t help for me) AND it was offering a solution by raising funds for things like medicine. So it was one of those experiences where I was trying to figure out how to make my “new” resonate with my “old.”This situation is particularly hard because info-spreading is SOOOOOOO important here due to the media bias. Anytime I post something “pro-Palestine” I receive e-mails from INCREDULOUS people who have been misinformed (or only half-way informed) by the media reports. So I’ve been posting and having lots of conversations with people on the subject throughout the week. Afterward I always feel like, “Oh God. I just spent a whole hour talking about negative stuff and about war and destruction. I hope my focus on it doesn’t increase it. I should be focusing on PEACE instead so that THAT increases.” But the thing is, that after educating people and showing them the other half, most people have “wow, I never knew that” moments and suddenly understand the plight of Palestinians. So the RESULTS are positive. And I’ve REALLY tried to focus on peace and reconciliation by posting things like pro-Palestine opinions by Israelis or Jewish people. Being pro-Palestine, does NOT mean that I’m “anti-Jewish” and people taking their anger out on Jewish people really bothers me, so I’ve tried to focus on that angle. Focusing on the Israelis who are against what Israel is doing to Palestinians..... But yet and still the focus is on things like children being murdered……And yet the media bias makes it impossible for me to NOT talk about the negative things going on (CONFLICT!). One of my all-time favorite Tech songs “The Fourth Branch” really comes to mind… I’ll be posting it at the end of the blog along with the lyrics to it. I’ll also be posting the super funny Jon Stewart clip on the situation that collages some of the media and government bias. I’ll also post a link to the article I was spreading (thanks to Jasleen) about ISRAELIS against the assaults on GazaAnother example of how the Gaza situation has put these conflicts front and center for me has been the Obama Inauguration.. As much as I want to focus on the positive, Obama’s silence on the situation had been causing me disappointment and a loss of faith. I didn’t feel like it would be right for me to go to the Inauguration under the circumstances (I don’t need to back someone who backs human rights violations), so I said that if he didn’t deviate from the “I will continue to support Israel” line, I was going to give my Inauguration tickets away. But how do I do that and deal with that sort of situation without any negativity? A Reverend at Agape (my “church”: http://www.agapelive.com/) last week was saying that you don’t HAVE to judge. That you can just either “be interested or not be interested” in things and situations without casting “judgment.” So I ran with that and just said that if Obama didn’t change his “I support Israel” tune, in the face of the assaults on civilians and U.N. Workers, then I was “not interested” in the Inauguration.But people kept telling me to give him a chance and let him at least be sworn in before I decided anything. To give him a full, fair shot before deciding I “wasn’t interested.” That it wouldn’t be fair otherwise. So I decided to suck it up and go. With full faith. And he’s already starting to change his tune: http://www. cnn. com/2009/POLITICS/01/11/obama. gaza/index. html?section=cnn_latestSince I’m being positive and giving him “full faith”, I’m looking at him saying that he’s been silent because you can’t have two different messages coming from the White House, as an indication that his message will be different than that of the Bush Administration. I mean otherwise it wouldn’t be “two different messages.” It would just be one, right? AND he’s at least now talking about the suffering about of the Palestinians rather than just sticking to the “I support Israel” line. And the line about, “I don't want to be ambiguous about this. We are going to close Guantanamo and we are going to make sure that the procedures we set up are ones that abide by our Constitution” REALLY made me happy and glad I decided to not become “uninterested” so fast.I’m believing there is hope for Gaza after January 20th since I don’t doubt Obama’s human rights background would keep him from sleeping at night if he continued on the “I fully support Israel” path in the face of the current situation. I was just worried about him buckling under political pressure so fast. I will continue trying to reconcile my old beliefs with my new and find an appropriate balance while I continue my intensive study of Metaphysics as a solution. If anybody who has been down this road before (or anybody period) has any pointers, suggestions, or comments, they are truly appreciated. And to my super militant friends who have been looking at me kinda funny, don’t worry, if I were to find that this path doesn’t work and doesn’t offer me the solutions I’m seeking, I will move on to the next path. But at the moment, the amazing results I’ve witnessed have me 100% sold.AND HERE ARE SOME OF THE PROMISED LINKS AND POSTS:Israelis Outraged by the Assaults on Gaza:http://www. truthdig. com/report/item/20090106_israeli_voices_for_peace/