i often forget what i am to say.  i often forget to feel.  i often forget to breathe.  There is a certain bliss to life, to my life, and i know its there, all around me, but sometimes, if not most times, i just cant seem to grasp it.  I dont quite know how to say, how i feel.  it clings from my grasp, its too low for me to reach, or its just too visible to see. 

The way there are people that cause me such confusing emotions.

The way you never find what your looking for until you quit looking.

The way i feel about those close to me.

The way I stare at the future in wonder.

The way things so dear are taken from me.

The way somthing once so unspeakably beautiful can end so horribly ugly.

The way time flies by.

The way friendships come and go.

The way people say or do one thing and mean another.

The way people view me.

The way i view them.

The way i communicate with people, the way i dont understand people.  the way people dont understand me.

Theres an entire world out there waiting for me.  to explore, to cherish, to discover, to take for granted.

and i love it.  I love it all. 

The enemies: time, distance

The friends: love, courage

love it all.  and you'll finally see the truth.  Fear has no place here, but here is its home.  Home is not so sweet, but a mirage.  Life is not so short, but a dream.  A dream you have complete control over.  A dream that once you awake from there is no turning back, for you'll be awake then, forever.  So while in this dream of mine, I need to take control, and get the things done, enemies and friends at heel, guiding the entire process.  But how to know which choice will lead to the more favorable outcome?  There is no way. And thats the final word.

The confusion and mystery of life. 

Complete Bliss.

My all.