i find myself always running the honest race, always going that extra mile! above and beyond any of my competition in whatever i do.. but for some reason its never enough.. expectations are high from everyone in my life and im expected to not mess up, and when im human and make a tiny mistakes its like WWII... i been betrayed and backstabbed,
battered and beaten to my knee over and over again... my kindness is taken for granted and i dont know whos real or whos not.. i find the old nice me dying and slipping away, being consumed by the picture some people cut me out to be, my tolerance is zero, my patience i have none- but i wont be any better than the people turning me into this person i am, if i give in and just say "fuck it" fuck him or her, fuck your feelings and what you think! am i that weak or not? i look at life simple.. and sum people just make it harder than it needs to be, im fed up and tired.. scared and afraid of the person i might turn into
if things keep going this way!