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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision

Don MacIver


Last Updated: 11/14/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Married
Age: 51
Sign: Virgo

City: Victoria
State: British Columbia
Country: CA
Signup Date: 5/11/2007

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October 16, 2009 - Friday 

Current mood:  betrayed
Many of us have relationships that we would sooner forget. Our hearts were in the right place and it started out feeling so right yet turned out to be so terribly wrong. We all have our own perspective of what a relationship should be and as much as we want a union with another to work well and last a lifetime it simply is not meant to be. 

And so it was on this previous occasion that I saw blindly through eyes so naive. How could I have been so reckless to allow myself to get into such a precarious and hopeless situation...once again my heart got burned.



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An arid desert canyon staged
Our place of union, juxtaposed
Awkward words and glances questioned
Destined journey, feigned misgivings
Safety in numbers, background noise
Our intent surrounded, silent
Eyes searching for cues unspoken
Grazing touches electrified
Senses resisting urgency
Another drink, inhibitions
Clashing in a frenzied turmoil
Ever closer still are we drawn
Dare to go there, not in this time
Far removed from reality
Yet passions drive our restless souls
Undetected we make our leave

In a darkened room save moonlight
Spilling gently upon silence
Curtains stir in a midnight breeze
As we fumble, explorations
A sudden kiss signals further
Acquaintance meeting approval
The night was ours for all taking
Arousal mapping destiny
By morning's light new beginnings
Unclear as our questioning eyes
Looking for signs of assurance
A mistake we shall not embark
Your smile wavered unsteady
Cautious laughter ever your way
Yet for now, per chance, overlook
The wrongs that I wanted so right

The months passed us by in favour
Clandestine, we met with each chance
We dined by candlelight seeming
In rapture for all that could be
Yet the cautious distance you held
Between us precariously
Left me wanting for answers cast
In avoidance or so it seemed
The hours passed and days grew long
Your intentions unbecoming
My observances at impasse
Naive, my heart burned yet again
You scorned my disfavour outright
Dismissed my affections, uncaring
Spurned, not more than occassional
Pleasures your only intention


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Shelly

 
Great write Don.

 
Posted by Shelly on October 17, 2009 - Saturday - 2:06 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Thanks so much Shelly. This was a personal accounting of a lousy relationship I got myself into years ago.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 17, 2009 - Saturday - 2:56 AM
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† Τ Ō Ņ Υ †

 
wow...this one touched me deep Don...sadly I have been here
 
Posted by † Τ Ō Ņ Υ † on October 17, 2009 - Saturday - 10:32 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Thank you Tony. Yes, many of us have been there including myself. I guess you learn and grow from an experience like that but it cuts deep.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 18, 2009 - Sunday - 5:25 AM
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The String Poet
Ken Stuart

 
This so well delves into the inhibitions that, if not overcome, prevent true connection...
And then its results!
Beautiful, deep write Don!!!
 
Posted by The String Poet on October 17, 2009 - Saturday - 5:02 PM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Ken, thank you very much. I guess the whole feel of the piece is better when it is an actual life experience.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 18, 2009 - Sunday - 5:26 AM
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Tarringo T. Vaughan ~ FlexWriter
Tarringo Vaughan

 
and i wanted more!  superb man
 
Posted by Tarringo T. Vaughan ~ FlexWriter on October 17, 2009 - Saturday - 7:28 PM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Tarringo, thanks so much man. Comments like that from you always leaves me near speechless!
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 18, 2009 - Sunday - 5:28 AM
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Eusthacia

 
you dig so deep when you write, and btw, I cannot fathom someone not appreciating you and holding on to you.  goodness, you're one of the very few, very rare good guys out there.  ((hugs))

 
Posted by Eusthacia on October 18, 2009 - Sunday - 1:47 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Ah Anna, you make me blush!! Thanks so much luv. I am always hoping that nothing gets lost in the translation. If I'm going to write I want to reach readers in a deep and profound way. Life's experiences aren't always easy to reflect back on but maybe, just maybe it will help someone avoid the same situation themselves. Hugs right back at ya!
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 18, 2009 - Sunday - 5:31 AM
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]]]Hell and Back[[[

 
i like how this is sort of a "step-back" look at things.....think it's important to give ourselves that perspective.  but i think it's also important, to realize that there was nothing "wrong" in the try or attempt....that any hope for closer existence with another human being, is NOBLE....no matter the outcome
 
Posted by ]]]Hell and Back[[[ on October 19, 2009 - Monday - 11:09 PM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Thanks so much Eileen. The whole scenario was complicated. My marriage had ended and I rushed into the relationship out of loneliness and along the way I grew to expect much more of a relationship than was realistically possible with this person. She simply would not allow anyone to get close. There were glimmers of a possibility the relationship would turn into something serious and the moment that occurred she would close the door in haste and there I was hanging over the side of the cliff again, dangling in desperation, flailing my arms in futile attempts to gently move the relationship forward but it just was not meant to be. It was really quite painful as I just can't have a casual, meaningless relationship...a very foreign concept for me. There were some very nice moments together but the rest really rattled my cage for quite some time...started to think I had gone way to far.

 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 6:09 AM
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Jane

 
"Pleasures your only intention"

I like to think that users suffer too
 
Posted by Jane on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 6:22 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Hi Jane!! Yes, users undoubtedly do suffer too. In our case she was obviously quite upset over our parting. We had a very close friendship and she just couldn't extend herself beyond that and a physical relationship. That was her makeup and over time I grew to accept that. She has her own issues to deal with. Her daughter had grown very close to me, evidently the first time for a "boyfriend" of mom's. She was pretty upset over it all too.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 4:39 PM
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~Kristine~

 
O, Don...

I am really feeling this write. *shacking my head* What is wrong with some people when they don't know a good thing when it is staring them right in the face. Geezzz...  You are adorable Don!!!

Mad love to you guy, such a sweetie!

Kristine


 
Posted by ~Kristine~ on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 6:47 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
OMG, Kristine...such wonderful comments! I blush profusely..lol! Well you know, the two of us worked together and fellow staff were quietly suggesting the relationship was not right for me, what was I doing?!!!, don't go there etc. Because of our closeness that extended beyond friendship I truly believed at the time there was potential for us together. Love back to ya Kristine. You're the best.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 4:44 PM
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Lainey

 
Well you really put your heart out here Don, and shared your world.
Beautifully and emotionally expressed.
Glad you are not in this relationship struggle now!
xox
Elaine
 
Posted by Lainey on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 7:02 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Elaine, thank you so much. These are the things we must go through in life I guess. I have had a sometimes stormy second marriage but we are always working to make things better between each other now. I hear from other former colleagues that the lady who I have written of here has tromped her way through numerous subsequent "relationships"...something of fatal attractions I guess. Many hugs for you today Ms. Lainey.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 20, 2009 - Tuesday - 4:47 PM
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woman-of-poems

 

nothing wounds as much as love lost...

good one.

love k

 
Posted by woman-of-poems on October 22, 2009 - Thursday - 4:00 AM
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Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision
Don MacIver

 
Thanks so much k. Great to see you here. Yes, and time heals...and we move on. Love, or perceived love, is a powerful emotion that can take us to places we've never been...and drag us down to depths we've rather not see.
 
Posted by Don MacIver...Poetry; One Vision on October 22, 2009 - Thursday - 6:05 AM
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