I was thinking and just relaxing my spiritual eyes, and I saw myself. I mean, I saw myself, like I was watching from a short distance away. There were drums around a fire and I was dancing and singing to Lord Krishna, and I didn't really want to stop. Krishna was there, he was playing a melody on his flute, in harmony to the drums. But finally, the music stopped and I saw myself walk over to the side, by a clearing, sit down on a lotus-shaped cushion, right next to Shiva, who was also sitting upon a cushion. When I looked back towards where I last saw Krishna, I saw His faint image in the process of fading away, the last bit of divine light then burst into a fireworks blossom. Then each of the millions of sparkles, proceeded to land on all the living things around me, and illumine all from within. I imagined that one of the little sparkles landed within my heart, and now I can plainly see Krishna as residing within my heart... and when I feel I want that sacred embrace, I've only got to go within, to my heart, and He is there. I saw myself smile, and realize that all around me was divine. I saw myself looking around, wondering where the Goddess was amongst this parleigh of gods. Then it dawned on me. I AM the Goddess in this vision. I smiled, I smiled bigger and happier than I've ever seen me smile! I had been perplexed at my seeming dividedness; dividing my 'loyalties' between Krishna/Vishnu and Shiva and The Goddess. With this vision, I feel mended, there is a mythos, a comprehensive drama and dialogue that I am taking part in... on the mythic plane. And I like this one better than the ones I have been partially playing so far. It validates my knowledge and experience of The Goddess. It encourages my devotions to Krishna as my Divine Beloved. It also renews my commitment to Shiva, and the Divine expression of my dharma... I feel so blessed, I feel so alive, and above all, I feel empowered. Now I know why I dance the way I do. Now I know why I love Krishna. Now I see and feel the Goddess within, and as the soul of the world. And now I gladly answer to Shiva, my task-master, my Gurudev, realizing that all the Divine energies are necessary to my soul.
OM Shanti
Parvati