Today my class graduated.  I've spent months in college, having graduated early, feeling no remorse for what I chose to do until yesterday, when I watched my cousin at her sixth grade promotion, and recalled the memories of talking with my best friend of sitting side by side as our names are called to walk to the stage and collect our diplomas.  I do not regret my decision, as it opened many doors for me, but i must think back on the doors it closed.  would things have been different?  would friendships have come out differently, and would new friendships have formed?  Would it have kept me from developing the relationships I have developed over the last 8 months, and would it be for better, or for worse?  It feels like that statement was exaggerated, but it has been, today, eight months since I graduated from high school.  There are many memories I will never be able to have.  I won't be able to ever recall a senior ball.  grad night.  slam.  senior week.  I have no senior portraits that I have ordered, despite the fact that they were taken.  and I will never have the sad memories of saying goodbye, as I left so abruptly in the past.  I miss my high school.  I miss waking up early, and hating it.  My teachers.  Too much homework.  Friends who loved me, and people who would say mean comments just because I was walking by.  And for eight months I have had those feelings, however kept inside.  At least now, I know that I'm no longer alone in those feelings.  And that the rest of my class will be away from there as I am.  This isn'ta complaint, or a cry for help, and I wouldnt even consider this moment sad.  Its just that I'm realizing that life is movng whether or not I want to keep up with it.  I have no idea if I'm making good decisions.  It seemed like no big deal when I left early before, but not it seems to mean so much.  Perhaps eight months from today, I'll look back on something else I did, and realize its importance.  But I guess there really is no way to know for sure.  And that I should live life day to day, and just hope for the best in the future.

Congratualtions to the high school class of 2008.  May your lives carry more meaning than just living, and may all of your futures be full of surprises and many ups and downs.  Because who wants things to always be the same?