but it doesnt

no matter what

zach.

he is always going to be gone and no matter how many times people say that time heals all wounds it doesnt make them right. quite frankly i think its a bunch of bullshit anyways to make people feel like they are gonna feel better or eventually "heal".

The memories are always going to be there.

and thank god for that  because i’d never wanna forget him.

i miss him so bad and its never going to go away. its not like depression is setting in and i wanna die or anything but its just this empty space that no matter what constantly feels hollow and cold....

peace. if you believe its not possible, then reset your ideas. I have finally found an inner peace through all of this. im at a comfortable place with the world and everyone in it. i love the people i love and im no longer going to lie to or decieve them. thats one thing my brother taught me is that if you cant be honest than there is no point in being in the first place. to my friends im sorry. for lying for not being everything you should have gotten in a freind. to danny im sorry. for not being everything you needed when you were constantly there without waver. to zach i love you. and i miss you. and thank you for being the best brother anyone could have and teaching me how to be the person i need to be. you are still an amazing person.

peace

love

and empathy

Casey.