I'm sitting in my car outside of my office at my new job in California and I'm a bit early for work. it's 7 am (10 am Pennsylvania time, yes pizon I'm dumb) and I feel strange. After everything I've been through in my life, I never thought for even a second that this would happen. I never could have imagined ending up in Cali working for a big company in the security industry, and on the internet side of things no less. It feels almost like a dream. Is this really happening? Am I going to wake up in a cold sweat 10 minutes from now? Am I going to be back in my apartment in West Chester depressed and sick of it all? No, not this time. This is the real thing. I don't feel like I've given it all up and I don't feel like I'm leaving my past behind me. I feel like I'm adding to my life and experiences. I feel like I'm finally understanding myself and my life more than ever before, and its fucking amazing. I'm finally becoming the man I've always wanted to be. I haven't forgotten those that have helped me get here and I never will. I love you all with all that I have and all that I am and will carry your words and hearts with me no matter where I am , no matter where I go. Everyone is more than welcome to come visit me, and I would love to see all of you as soon as possible. I've decided that I'm going to start a video blog to keep everyone up to date and informed on the happenings in my life. I'll let you all know as soon as it's online. For now I take my leave and will head into the office for my first real day of the second beginning of my life. Again, thankyou to everyone that has helped me out and been there for me. I love you all.