I have not done a blog in a very long time. Its sad dat I am now. Im not gonna make it long n drawn out n put out there what I really want 2, well not evrything. I am jus gonna leave it like this.


Peace n Respect 2 U on here n not, dat have bin real. I know who have not bin, n wanna believe da 1s dat I feel have n still seem they r. But I have lost trust in nething n ne1 nemore. I have given evrything in all dat I have done, n I have nothin left. So I am not deletin nethin but I am disappearin. I really jus need 2 really know what has bin n what is real now. Cuz I am really fucked up from evrything dat has happened 2 me. I know I have done alotta wrong shit in my life, but dont feel I deserve what has happened. I have lost da heart dat I used 2 have, n have really tried 2 lie 2 myself dat I am still da same as I ever was. But I am jus lying 2 myself. Evrything I do nemore, I jus see what was n what is. N I see no truth in it. My life has bin, my seeds, my music, n da 1s I truly love n close 2 my heart. N cuz they all coincide wit 1 anutha, I have jus lost what I do. I cant go out nemore, witout gettin angry, or upset, I cant do music nemore, cuz it hurts 2 do it. I mean, I hate bein alone but I know dat da only pain dat can happen is what I do 2 myself. Which I know its all pain inflicted, since I know how Im gonna die neway. Yall will neva know how I feel about evrything dat has happened, even tho I pour it out in my music. I like this line dat I say, it dosent mean what probly evry1 thinks it means. It does have a double meanin.

The day Im gone is a loss 4 evry1, pour out sum liqour how long will ya mourn me when Im gone.

Ya know where Im @, ya know how 2 get @ me. I dont need da fake n fony nemore. I have bin 100 wit ne1 n evry1, I leave it up 2 yall 4 nethin else. Its up 2 yall 4 now on.







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