It has been ages since I have written anything which I guess means I haven't had much to say, or I have had so much I just couldn't prioritize.  Things are crazy in my family right now. 

We have always lived in a glass house of sorts.  Since my father is a pastor the whole church seemed to be watching us to determine what should be acceptable and what wasn't.  We generally tried to stay above the morally acceptable line.  Meaning we didn't get caught drinking and driving or drinking under age.  We were never caught with drugs or cheating on tests.  That is not to say we didn't do those things after all the 4 of us were normal human kids.  We generally just worked harder at not getting caught.  The need to be a good role model, above average in all things associated with adulthood has definitely carried over to adulthood for most of us.  Now it is less about letting down our parents or having them lose face in front of the church but more about just who we became as adults.  For instance, Tom is a retired Major from the Air Force at 43 and has a golf handicap of 2 or 3....yes we are overachievers. 

I think it was this same attitude that made my younger brother try so hard to save his marriage recently.  He fought for what he believed in and worked hard to keep something his ex-wife had already flushed down the toilet.  I wish I could have wrung her neck.  What a horrible thing to do to such a stand up guy.  but anyway i digress.

I think I have learned something from both the boys.  It doesn't matter what you accel at or what turns out wrong in the long run so long as when life goes crazy you can still find a place to center yourself and remember that this too will pass.  Just like everything else you end up needing to have an out.  A place that can keep you sane in the midst of insanity...