Ok, so it was longer than the weekend. Right now, it looks like i'm out for GOOD. I've fucked up badly (LONG story) with the folks. I dunno what to do. Unfortunately, i'm not in well enough with my girlfriend's folks to spend the night over there, (and theyre going on vacation anyway) and sleeping in the car is a last resort for me. Most of you know how shitty my car is to DRIVE in, imagine how it is to sleep in!

Ive realized quite recently that I am very much a burden to many people, my friends and family included. Even if i was accepted back into my family, i don't think i could go. I have caused WAY too much trouble and heartache with my parents to be able to go back. It's always said that in order to be forgiven, one must forgive oneself. Well, I haven't done that yet. i'm not ready to forgive myself yet. So yeah, homelessness is shitty...but i have to own it.

It's not gonna be as bad as it could be. I still have all my stuff, like my dvd's, phone, laptop, game system, guitar, books, and swords, as well as my car, and a weeks worth of clothes. If all goes bad, i could always sleep in my car, read my martial arts books, train, go to a starbucks occasionally and charge my cell phone and use the internet. So i'm not TOTALLY helpless...just without a place to call my own. Then again...I really would trade it all for a comfortable, decent place to stay at night.

I have Kim, and she's been the biggest of help. She really is an amazing girl. She's been here for me through thick and thin, she's helped me get a place to stay the first night, and no matter what, she's sticking by my side. And i couldnt ask anything more of her. Sometimes it seems like she's the only thing keeping me here. I mean no offense to anyone else that has stuck by me. You're all important too, dont ever forget that...but at the end of the day, it's her face that i fall asleep to, wherever i may be. But unfortunately at times like these, that just isnt enough. I need a job, i need a cash flow, i need cashing in on favors, and most of all, i need a place to stay that ISNT Telegraph Ave.

So anyway, if there is any way that I could bunk up for a few days anywhere close, please let me know. I don't have much of a choice but to ask...and if anyone out there has favors that i havent yet cashed in on, now would be the time for me to do so. Dont worry about food, i should be fine fending for myself in that respect. I'm Italian, we're pretty resourceful in that respect. All i ask is for a bed and a computer (every so often) for the next few nights. Even if you can only spare a room for one night, that would be much appreciated. Please let me know as soon as you can. I'm gonna try to get my laptop and cell phone charger REALLY late tonight at my house, but i cannot promise anything, so PLEASE call me tonight or message me on here as soon as you can...if you can.

It would be very much appreciated if anyone could help.

PS: Now would be a great time to buy dvds from me too, so i have some gas money lol. Seriously though, thanks again if you're able and willing to help. I very much appreciate it. I need all the help i can get right now. Who knows when I'll be back in the ol' house again.

Wish me luck.