Here I am again pondering the meaning of it all and evaluating my happiness to misery ratio.
All in all I have to say that I am pretty darn happy and while everything is not always perfect, I wouldn't trade my life for anyones.
I have a good man, beautiful smart children, and an extended family that loves me madly.
It becomes upsetting to be around people that have just as much going for them in their life and yet they claim to be suicidal and lament that their lives are not just worthless, but that their responsiblities that go on after them are not worth their time and effort.
I know that bad things happen to good people. But I want to slap these good people upside the head and tell them to stop being victims and that they have the power to do just that whenever they make the choice to do so.
I don't understand the mentality and I am not very patient. I believe that everything that happens to us is a choice that we made in some form or fashion and it is each persons responsiblity to live that choice, learn from the choice, and decide how to respond to the choice, and finally to decide how much power you are going to give that choice for the rest of your life.
Take back your life. Take back your future. Life should be filled with no regrets, if possible. Love as many people as you can and live life to the fullest.
And always be grateful for those choices that led us on a positive path. Forgive yourself for not making more of those kinds of choices.
It takes a great amount of wrinkle causing effort to hate and regret, and internally chastice yourself. So, let it go. Become a more beautiful person and relax and let your soul breath. And remember, if you are lying there and trying to breath, you should reach out to the left and to the right and grab the hand of those family and friends that surround you. Connections can be metaphorical so don't be so literal in your thoughts and needs.
Everybody is loved. Please remember this as you ponder your future and any perceived impediment.
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