muzukashii...

being sick and staying home after work...
made me think...
im such a pussy...
lol

if were out in public
you can point out a random person...
and i can create a convo

but if it comes to telling someone
how i really feel about a certain situation...
...then i'd be like the dude in 4th grade
who writes it in a piece of paper...
then gives it to his best friend
so that the best friend can give it
to the person i like or whatever....

if i could, i'd still do it.
but in the note... instead of it just saying:
"i like u, do u like me? [ ] Yes [ ] No "
it would actually have something written down
that would be more complicated that deals
with whatever is going on in my head at the time...

it would say something like:

"how i cant get you out of my head,
and i was infatuated when we first met,
but didnt do anything because i was insecure
due to my history of 'unfaithful' significant others
and how i get nervous when i talk with you...
whether on the PHONE, in person, or texting...
and how i look forward to seeing you,
but hella nervous at the same time....
and i have a history of bad timing...
so i tend to calm down on taking chances...
all i know is that theres something about you.
that keeps me on my toes and my nervous self...
its kinda exciting....
and the truth is... its different everytime
and maybe thats why i can never tell you,
because once i conquer that thing i was sooo nervous about...
something pops up and gets me nervous & excited about you.."

AND THEN AT THE END IT WOULD SAY:
i like you, do you like me? [ ] YES [ ] NO

good day...i SAID good day!