my reasons why i hate rwjuh.

1. no parking (in hamilton)
2. costs $23 to new brunswick - 17 for me and kenny's tickets, 5 for parking.
3. them taking me in october for my first prenatal appt when i called in august.
4. having to go their stupid clinic 'cos i only had medicaid after my birthday.
5. them telling me and kenny that hayden would pretty much be totally fucked up.
6. sending me up to new brunswick every fucking week 'cos of that.
7. having a stupid c-section because they said his head was too big.
8. the way the doctors and all but one nurse treated me while i was in the hosptial... oh and the two students who took out my staples were nice as well.
9. them telling me i couldn't breastfeed him while he was in the nicu 'cos a drug test i took in march came back dirty even though my preadmission test which i took on april 11 and one i took on the 14 both came back clean!
10. the fact that my birthplan clearly stated i didn't want him to have a pacifier because i wanted to breastfeed and when i first got to see him after the few seconds in the delivery room he had one!
11. the stupid nicu ladies not changing his diaper 'cos babies are supposed to cry. and we weren't allowed to change it.
12. and the way the anotesologist which is spelt wrong treated me when he gave me my spinal, telling me to stop shivering. wtf it was like 40° in there i can't fucking help it.
13. the fact that since i didn't get to breastfeed him the first couple days he wouldn't latch on, and now i have to spend like $6 on a days worth a formula.
14. the nurse got pissed off 'cos i bled on the floor when going to the bathroom.
15. still having to go back to new brunswick for follow up on him 34rnofnwiron3445nknfg!
16. and what made me start this list - now 1/2 my incision is pusy and bloody orange! stupid fucking doctors had to put me back together wrong.
17. oh and also they cut out my nerves and now i'll never be able to itch below my belly button again w/o it feeling numb ew!


i also hate the fact that everyone got to see hayden before i did. and kenny and my mom didn't even ask me if i wanted these people to come see us. and my dad didn't even ask to come period. another reason why i hate kenny's mom so much.

other than that my kitten is doing okay! he is so awesomely cute. he'll be one month old on saturday already. that's it i guess i mean he doesn't do much except eat and sleep and be merry. he smiles alotttt though. and it can't be gas because most of the time it's when we tickle him or make stupid mistakes. and trista is in love with him sometimes.. when my mom is holding him she'll come lay down next to him and rub herself on him. and noodle likes to lay on his towel when he's getting a bath. but otherwise just likes to be nosy. he goes to the doctor on friday and hopefully he has gained some weight. he's been drinking all of his 3.5oz bottles except on a rare occasion but we'll burp him and wait a little and he'll drink the rest. and i can't wait to have sex again this is the horniest i've been in my life. we did a little yesterday 'cos i couldn't resist but he had to stop really fast 'cos we have no condoms :-x well my 6 week check up is on the 21 (in hamilton thank god) so hopefully she says we can do it again and i will go home and jump on him hehe. but i have to go in today 'cos of the stupid pusy blood. okay well bye.


these are like from his first week home.