Ugh.
I feel like shit, I've been up all night, I can't really think anymore. I feel like I'm doing so many things wrong the main three being:

1. Dropping school till the move.
2. Falling in LOVE With my best friend, and then telling him I had after he told me he was engaged. ><; Yes I am a dumbass.
3. Not trying harder to find a new job.

><; I don't even understand how I fell in love in the first place when I'm still so strung up over Mik. I can say what I want to him, and he can say what he wants to me, but I still love him more then I have ever loved anyone in my life.  ><; That just makes me even more sick... I wish I could just get over him already instead of dragging myself in and out of this constant depression. I feel like I'm desperate. There is nothing that I hate more then feeling like I need somone else. PEOPLE Should need ME. ick.


So yeah I'm not in school... i just work for the time being. Trying to move out.

I feel so ick, and I know I wouldn't feel so ick if I didn't make things so hard for myself. If I put more effort into life it might actually turn out like I plan it. I might get somewhere and have one accomplishment to be proud of...

><;;;;;;;;;; i've been just iching to get married already. No idea why, I guess because I'm surrounded by it now. :: sighs ::

My dad came home.... yay... heh. whatever.

signed with WickedLittleKisses -Salu