NICE!

So I've finished my essay and handed it in just before the deadline. I think its a good read in the end, however I would of liked to of written a more indepth conclusion but the fear of overwriting the word count was feeding my paranoia. I will just have to wait until results day to see how I did. These things always suprise me, the last time I felt confident about an essay I had written was in Alevel media when I wrote about how females are represented throughout Japanese films comparing traditional with modern day, East meeting West. I received a really low mark for that essay and I was gutted as I was obsessed with Japanese films and Japan in general. I should of asked for it to be remarked as I felt it was worth more comparing it with the high marks the other students received for their essays that I read afterwards.

Anyway thats the past and right now I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my face although I also feel like my brain is full to the brim of knowledge on airbrushing photographs for glossy magazines. Its quite ironic really as just as I've gained all this knowledge I have been dropped from my job as an airbrush artist and photographer for a photographic makeover company . I cant say which one because I could be done for slander. Yes I lost my job during my week off, 3 days before my 22nd birthday, 4 days before my essay deadline, after 9 months of overworking myself for them and 3 days after I complained about a member of staff for not working hard enough, spreading rumours about me and sending all trouble in my direction. My boss was so useless that they had their receptionist phone me up and give the reason for my leave as 'due to the credit crunch'. As you can imagine I was very angry however after a week of ranting I became to realise it was for the best that I wasnt no longer working for them. Atleast I learnt some skills through using their studio's equipment and I realised that years of training isn't really necessary for that jobrole just a good eye for taking a photograph and being able to meet short repeated deadlines. Its also given me more options as a career if needed.

 I now have more free time to concentrate on University with just enough money to scrape by with until my next student loan in January. I'd have to start job hunting in January once rent and bills would start draining me. I'm dreading the day loans stop and council tax starts eating away, that big step into adulthood and reality after University is over.  I really need to start focusing more on my final outcome. Its scary, stressful, exciting, practical and basically a big ball of emotions that you dont have time to think about. I best get to it....

SERA