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Dee Lewis


Last Updated: 12/3/2009

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Gender: Male
Status: Single
Age: 23
Sign: Virgo

City: Generic shithole
State: Indiana
Country: US
Signup Date: 7/11/2005

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Saturday, June 27, 2009 

Current mood:  vital
Category: Life
Sup? I haven't wrote in like nearly a year, have I? You know. "Wrote". I'm strongly considering moving to some 3rd world country and becoming a eunuch. I mean, I've basically spent the beginning on my summer regretting every action I've made to this point. Every mistake, hell every positive thing had some sort of negative drawback in my life.


They don't want a hero, they want a martyr.


I had nearly convinced myself that I was ready to do things. I actually want to see my son. I've been wanting to see him. But I don't have a job. I don't make shit for money. I'm a bad father. I mean, how can I call myself anything but, when I've not contributed to his well-being in so long? Tiffany stop letting me see him because of me being an asshole to her, understandable, but after all of this time? I'd give anything at this point. I've spent god knows how long trying to contact her. I don't want to argue or fight anymore. I just want my son. I'll even forget the fact that I wanna break her boyfriends neck. I figure that fighting to settle anger or problems with that person proves the small-mindedness of the aggressor. My brother has shown me that, with him being kicked out of high school and all. Anyway, with something new popping up, hopefully I can get in touch with her and discuss court and visitation/custody things.


Is there not a man among you? One that will fight?


I've decided on my future. Undergrad college, then off to medical school. Yeah, awfully ambitious of me, isn't it? Guess I'm sick of killing myself for 10 an hour on part-time work. But yeah, the internet sucks and I feel like selling this computer to get me a months supply of hot wings.


I'm so not good at ranting anymore. I guess you gotta have the grit and emotion to do it anymore. I just know my room is always really fucking hot. And I want some Sweet tarts.


Well, in the least, it was an attempt at ranting. Bye again, until I feel like typing about my feelings and shit again.
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Freakosaurus

 
Well they say:  you've got to pick your battles but I reckon yes you've got to pick your battles but you've also got to pick your weapons, sometimes swords are good and sometimes fists work, I don't agree with guns but sometimes bombs are in order and then sometimes you've got to fight your battles with politeness and words and wit and intellect and sometimes you've got to fight them with morals and love and kindness and determination.  When it comes to your son.... you know which way is best to fight for him.

If it was my boy, I'd eat shit and die if I had to, if I had to I'd give away my self-respect, my pride, my life, whatever it took to be with him full stop!

 
Posted by Freakosaurus on Sunday, June 28, 2009 - 12:35 AM
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Pwn*Momma

 
You don't really want me to say what I want right here for all to read (do you)? I tried while you were here- close to his cute lil butt- to offer you what I could....in trying to get some visits set up and whatnot. I think between you and me the words you spoke about him made you a good father. You acknowledged he was YOURS, you said you LOVED HIM, among the other things I have obviously forgotten. What (in my opinion) made you a *bad father* was that you gave up. I still love you Metri <3

 
Posted by Pwn*Momma on Sunday, June 28, 2009 - 3:06 AM
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Daniel Deming

 
you get there lewis buddy....we all will someday kid .....its to early to call yourself a bad father with the time that has past because theres the future and everyone hits a point where the walls fall and the shit hits the fan your a good dude and you will make a great father givin the chance i hope me and megan can stand by yourside and have your friendship for a long time and hopefully us stealing you from gary helps even if its just hanging out and laughing



 
Posted by █FaTDaN█™ on Sunday, June 28, 2009 - 3:32 AM
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Daniel Vanzant

 
Good to see you writing again, I enjoy your random thoughts. I'd sell the computer for White Castle cases honestly. So you Quit Pwn*? It's cool, just wondering.

 
Posted by Pwn*Vanzant™ on Sunday, June 28, 2009 - 7:24 AM
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Amy Jones

 
just keep your head up and you will get over your obstacles

 
Posted by Pwn* BF1942 Pilot Amy on Monday, June 29, 2009 - 11:57 AM
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Huey Freeman Sr.

 
you know, me bein a black man an all, would like to say "I feel yo pain, my brother!", but that Father/son shit goes way past anything that you can realy convey on a computer, so I'll just say this, "keep yo head up son!"
 
Posted by Huey Freeman Sr. on Thursday, July 30, 2009 - 10:55 PM
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