well this is not going to be a typical sad and depressed like my blogs normally are. i usually only blog when ive got some negative venting to do, but today i have positive venting. yay! i got a fortune from a cookie once and it said "let your rod always be cast because in the pond where you least expect it will be fish". and i have to say that is very true. i have unexpectedily begun a relationship with someone recently. i wasn't really looking for anything. in fact i was kind of pushing options away. ive been building up these cynical walls around me the past few years and convinced myself that i wanted to be alone, and i wasn't unhappy either. i came to enjoy my newly found independence and spending time alone. i couldn't imagine myself wanting to be involved with anyone. but its crazy how the right person always saying the right things at the right time can change that. i find my cynicism slowly fading and my walls starting to receed. i have to admit its kind of scary, but then again all new things are i guess. life and relationships are all about learning, and thats what im doing learning...