I can usually fall asleep on cue!! Standing, sitting, laying, TV on, Loud music, mountain goats playing cards... no problem I'll sleep through it. (My ears are only programmed to send a message to my brain to wake me when specific booty call texts come through!!) So my point is I usually have no probs sleeping.

Tonight I can't sleep! Went to bed at midnight and its like 5 am! It can be difficult to silence your mind sometimes. Its like I'm in a hotel and my mind is speeding around opening doors to new rooms which each carry within them certain thoughts or ideas. I chase after my mind and each time I close a door 3 new ones open! I can't keep up with him tonight! He's in racing mode!! Although I'm aware of many techniques to quiet him and make him stand still I'm kinda sorta intrigued by his speedy adventures!
I found myself surprised and amused that I was immersed in a vision of a horse dressed in a police outfit listenin to Lil Wayne and bopping his head while writing someone a ticket! Yes I'm sober right now! 
Then I go into romance fantasy. Not necessarily sexual but more like holding someones hand and doing romantic mushy stuff with them, in a Meg Ryan movie kind of way. Having real feelings as opposed to just playing my own version of "9 and a half weeks" with a random variety of receptive minds and bodies who are usually just as sick as me, for thinking deep down they can change me!

Then I'm reminded of my last relationship and the immense pains that it caused. My chest feels tight for a second and my flow of breath is off beat.  I quickly glance over to my phone for any random text messages for an easy distraction. My ego is fed a nutritious and sexual bite as thoughts of true romance dwindle...all the while the horse-cop is still writing tickets and listenin to weezy.

Anywho, thought I would share. Lots of love ya weirdos.

Yes!! Out of nowhere I yawned and eyelids feel heavy.  I think I'm on my way to dreamland. Texting her to turn around n go back home... maybe some other time. Maybe tomorrow.  For tonight, I'm  turning my phone off and going to sleep.  Good night.