Another year has passed by and i'm getting Fatter everyday!

Yes, thanks to the happy life in Malacca...I was able to look for the cure that i needed to coax out my depression out of me..I've learned new things regarding serious relationship and I admit that I'm very full of fear of  getting thru one. I'm scared to explore the lads life again coz you never know that it sometimes could turn out to a mess and you'll discover the hell that hidden inside of them...i do admit too that I'm not a kind person, that never said 'Bodoh', 'Sial', 'Babi' and other harsh words ever in life...it's a natural thing to react with those words...in reality, those words don't meant a thing coz they does'nt come from the heart.

My friends serious relationship with their partners has taught me a lot on how to deal with men's attitude that is very unpredictable. Men are sometimes sweet with this kind of attitude which evidently created surprises. but when it comes into blaming people, becoming mad or angry, they let the ego took control over his acts...where did men put their brains at?

Men are pretty good in everthing i would say. We women sometimes feel stupid when certain things dragged us defeated. but we do have rational thoughts better that the men. I sometimes eager and anxious of finding one special man with credibility that does not think he's the best-among the best. yes, im too choosy coz i've felt being fooled by a man once. Precisely overthought about it over and over again and i keep tellig myself that i wont repeat the same mistake again though the mistake came from both sides. What is really important in a relationship is honesty, understanding, tolerance and commitment. I do hate people who tend to be partners based on desperation on having someone and also peer-pressure.