One of the Knicks invited me to a hot tub party this weekend -- and I said no! That's when I knew for sure, I really got it bad. Is it weird that I'm way more into Teddy now that he's gone? Don't get me wrong, I was plenty into him while he was here. He doesn't know this, but I had him in my sights for weeks before he approached me at Light. I made him work for it, but I always knew I wanted him. And now that he's away, I want him even harder.

So what's a girl to do? I mean, here I am, embarking on the most significant relationship I've been in since high school (not counting Professor Dimples, of course), and the rug gets completely yanked out from under my feet. I finally let my guard down, give up some freedom and put myself out there when POOF! Away he goes, leaving behind memories we didn't get the chance to create and a faint man scent on my pillow.

But whatever. I'm just venting, I can deal with it. It's just… I miss you, Hanssen. I really do.