sometimes.. it can be very hard to love or let it in.. I spent years in the dark after i lost my dearest friend in the whole world..she hung herself and i found her...I though after that I vowed to never let anyone in my life..and It is a dark place to be even with great distance I am greatful to the people who reached out when I would not reach back.. and things can get bleak and sorrow filled..but alone is hard and it hurts... I guess I am not making much sense..but don't close yourself off to the point where you have no love.. even the darkest souls need something to keep them alive.. huggs...rachel
 

hey sweetie..love is possably, dont let the hatred take over my dear, since i know you personaly..i would never want to lose your sweetness. And being alone is far darker then loveing then being let go. do not seal yourself my friend. for alone is far worse. trust me, i spent sometime alone. and i did not like it. i'm here for you forever my dear.
 

honestly i dont know your situation, but i have felt like this...and i will be the first one to tell you is that everbody deserves to be loved...and dont find it, it will find you...and that i know its hard for you right know and may be depressed but just dont let it get the best of you....and dont let this negative energy get the best of you...like i said everbidy needs love.. :)...well if you need someone to chat with then im here...even if you dont know me....stay positive

 

hang in there brother, sometimes it seems there is nothing left in this lifetime
but it is truely the time to take to look deep within yourself and see what you really need and what you really want and what you get is always what you need in life.
i was telling a friend of mine the other eve. each relationship on any level brings us closer to
our true selves and our true loves, each time my friend, each time, hang in there man,
we all love you, you are our brother, remember this. you are loved, yes you crave for more love
as most of us do, dont let these human emotions kill you on the inside, once you die on the innerself
it is yes like you are dead, but this is a worse fate for anyone to feel like. and yes you are stronger
than this, you can to overcome these human weaknesses you are feeling, meditate and feed off
the elements, hear what the universe has to tell you as you meditate.
i know darkness has that way of overwhelming you and it is so easy to give in at times like these,
but stay strong and remember sometime you will find your true love and you will be loved
all you need and want, but for now rest, meditate, listen, heal yourself, and bring yourself
back to the duality of light and dark.  stay sane of course :D sometimes it is better to be alone
for a while but not for the rest of your life, solitude can be good if we make the time for it
to be good.  be well and safe brother and take care of yourself. 6bab6alon6

 

I am going through the exact same feelings right now... I hope we both find our way out of it...

 

Love...wow  can relate with that blog very well...infact im a sucker for love to..but yes i have been hurt..and the hate burns inside and stirs to a boil at times but ive found ways of letting it out...in vocals, writing, medaitating, working out..swimming..recently art paiting..i found out some destribing news few days ago bout my ex..that i was very angery at..infact damn right hatered...but im letting go of it and knowing what i know..or dont know..im moving on and doing right for myself..enjoying the little things...like today may go drumming....its good outlet..so i quess find your outlet..your creative spice...and know that yes there is true love out there..i have love..loved..when i do love i give my heart whole heartly sometimes that is a gift and a curse....but im surranding my self with good friends..and trying to go on...and perhaps some day i will meet a decent man...who is whole heartly like me and deserves true love...well take care...think im gona go make some of my home made spagatti and feed it to my room mate and i ...:)
 

V you have 2 look at ur life and decide what u want the most. I have had 2 take several breathers from our community . emotions do not make us weak. they make us stronger when we learn we can endure all the awful shit. i have been where you are. ur 1st priority is always u. the temple is important i know but not at the expense of ur health. cut out all the dead things in ur life - loves associations lifestyles religion etc and get u back in order. u don't always have 2 be the dark god of gloom. sometimes 2 much death energies unbalances LIFE energy.
 

It has now been many months since you posted this.....
Are your feelings still the same?
For Love is not weakness.

Love is passionate and strong
It resides in everyone
Even our Vampire JP

Giving up is weakness
You are anything but weak my dear


 

sending u strength